The Bootylicious Baby

Royal do

2007-02-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

FREE DRINKS,PHOEBES WORKMATES,DANCEFLOOR=me being a happy little 19year old biatch

damn glutes

2007-02-15T19:39:00.000-08:00

so a lot has happened through out this month
1-i quit my job
2-i had to look for a job
3-i joined the gym
4-i saw phoebe
5-i went to interviews
6-i talked to rekha
7-I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so as you can see some aren't as important but thats how i can pretty much some it all up nicely.
i can't say that i came on here to rite a huge post becuz i just wanted to rite about these things that have seemed to have even though sound ordinary some how taken up my entire free time which is awesome but now i can't look for jobs, my gym membership runs out and i now just have to wait for march 5. oh so what to do i don't know.

my job is at eds and i will be beginning my new journey in the company down below. In the mail room. helping out with filing documents,scanning, photocopying and so on. and even though that might sound easy and lame i am so excited and i really cant wait to begin my career there! i think its becuz its something that i am definately lookin forward to and i applied for the job myself not just coz others told me i really am wanting it and now that i have it i can't wait to begin.

thats about it am going now and thanks for reading its rushed but most of my life is and i have no idea how or why! love yall and hope you had a good "valentines day" :^

Too Complicated.

2007-01-15T20:41:00.000-08:00

Ummm well seing as i'm here i thought i mite aswell post. I think i'm starting to do posts or do things on the internet coz i reckon its going to be soo good when i grow up and can look back on things that i use to rite either if they were rumbling nothings or true feelings i have shared with myself and the readers of this somehow hidden journal of mine.

My weeks not been too bad i can't complain now days its getting old and hey so am i eheheheh ahhh so i'll be turning twenty i think it'll be a good milestone or is it two that i will be reaching plus i can't wait to find out what lies ahead for me in my future. I should get things started by finally reaching my ever annoying goal of quitting my current job.
So what should i do after that i don't know? I want to get into some sort of 9-5 style of job coz i'm hella boring and needing a stable career???...i guess you could say.

the other day i watched my aunty get married in El Salvador she sent over a tape with a young fella that we know, Miguel. His gay>fun fact.? It was soooooo hmmmm funny? Is that the word i'm looking for? No it was very simple and really going off...which is good coz i could tell she enjoyed herself. I'm so glad that i got to see it, first gal in my family well my side of the family to TIE the freaken knot!!! uh i'm so proud. She was soooo beautiful with the whole white dress, flowers in her hair, the bouqet and the ring! heheh we're all surprised about the whole layout though coz she described it like it was so sad and that it looked so poor and shabby but i reckon it wasn't that far from being a young gals dream! I loved her cake, i'm so copying the cake design for when one day god willing my time comes and i marry! It was soo astonishingly rich looking which again bad rep from the bride saying it was simple...my goodness if thats simple whats an over the top cake look like?

Oh well thats about it guys and so yeah keep the love flowing and don't stop challenging yourself either big or small you'll reach them goals! MWAH LOVES!!!!

New years

2006-12-31T07:33:00.000-08:00

so 2006 hasn't treated me any better or worse than other years but i must say i know more what i can stand, how, when and by who.

I don't mean that its all been too bad man i got the gorgeouest little nephew out of it and i couldn't wish for anything better but still like every year something is missing but i never know what. Maybe its stability or knowing that something will last for eternity. Family for one i can count on no matter how harsh or horrible i mite get family will always stick by my side and this year has opened my eyes to how much.

Friendships new or old were tested some won others have just baarely passed but either way their still going on and i sometimes ask myself why. i jump over backwards for friends but then to me what happens i get screwed over in some really gay ass way and that totally shits me off i'm nearly twenty and what i'm i going to feel??????? same as every year?

My resolutions completed, or not are to get a new job, new way of thinking of life, be more positive, actually listen to instructions and stick to my guns by speaking out if i want something or not.

I hate those sidewalkers who listen to others yet i have always been one......y don't ask.

I love my life with my family and i wouldn't change it. The other part is just confusing.

Nikolas is a blessing in disguise if i never spoke to anyone from school again i don't know how i'd feel but i'd know i'd have a family who love me very much so it wouldn't matter.

New years celebrations have finished and instead of enjoying myself i'm writing in here does that mean anything i'll let you decide.

Enjoy mucho your new leases on life this year and don't stop yourself from wanting to be different or yourself love every minute and know that no matter who you may be love willl always surround you somehow. spiritually,physically or mentally

2006-12-19T20:23:00.000-08:00

katia had a baby boy Nikolas David!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so sexxxxxxxxxxyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

It better be back!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-03T20:57:00.000-08:00

Does anyone ever really grow up???

2006-12-03T20:44:00.000-08:00

The answer Nope they just get older.

Now i'm sure its easy to think someone has grown up becuz they're like 80 but they never even changed from how they were. Well by the way they act. I have noticed how no matter how old someone is when they come into my work or when i see them when i'm out they always act like they did when they were in highschool which is a dead give a way of how they use to be or how they wanted to be. And if this is the case i feel seriously in doubt about my ability to cope with what we'll be coming my way the more i get older. I'm saying this becuz if you look at someone more mature than you yeah they look older and yeah they've had life experience but give them a present out of the blue of say something that can take their breath away and they willl ultimately act the same, like a little kid inside has just burst out. It can either be joyus, hysteria, madness or darkened depression. Even when they say things its still in a way of juvenille behaviour i don't know maybe i have over studyed the people i meet and the way in which they act and talk but mind you i'm not saying this is a bad thing i'm just making an observation about no matter how old you get you will simply always be that girl that had the hugest crush on her p.e teacher or the nerd that tried to come up with some "awesome" idea to be the jock. And no matter how much you try to run away from being who you were you won't ever really run away you'll just understand yourself more.

yAY

2006-11-15T19:58:00.000-08:00

Rekha and her babi are here in ADELAIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO GONA C HER SO GONA C HER HAHAHAHAH

Happy born day 2 ME!!

2006-11-07T22:16:00.000-08:00

This time 19 years ago i was just hatched out of my mummy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't believe it ppl oh yeah i'm 19 i'm 19....well i'm 19 to my family to the rest of the clueless world i am 18 for another month.

It was a lady dressed as a witch

2006-10-31T17:16:00.000-08:00

errrrr i think i'm getting sunburnt on my cheeks oh not good!

thats all i wanted to say see simple and swwweeeeet!

happy halloween to all of you that carved pumpkins last night, i hate living in Australia when festive occasions come around. Does no one hear know the meaning of dressing up and going trick or treatin????? i was goin to take choby but his mum said no coz no other kid in the block was doing it, so un-coooollll mwah

Whats with the Poking??????

2006-10-22T21:30:00.000-07:00

As a girl i don't get it.

Wow this is weird but i just went to see.....doot doot doooo.....estrella! I decided why not i mean i should let things go and meh anger isn't my thing. So i spoke to her and it was good, awkward coz i had no idea what to say but it was good. I don't think i have spoken to her for about a few years which is weird coz i'v still got contact with all of my best eex mates or whatever so i think its good to keep a bond even if its not close its good to know things arent all heavy and weird like the use to be or like they didn't use to be...maybe it was on my part but i don't think i'll take it.

thats the second old friend i've spoken to this month i spoke to rekha the other day and that was like good old times and i think i reallllllyyy liked the fact that she never asks about my "private intimate life" as half the ppl i haven't talked to in yonks ask. Its like oh my gosh she is, is she has she hasn't she????? meh but i guess thats like me with the whole how much do you earn line heheh

Well last week i did something different i went to watch the BASKETBALL yay!!! it was tres exciting, they did the mexican wave and the foot thumps and it was sooo cool coz the 36ers won! Yay i went with Kate from work and her mommy sue whom i also work with. It was a good night and i definately will be doing that soon!

- okay just realised that sounded like a was a twelve year old girl riting in her diary about her really cool night ehhehe gosh i love myself hehehe mwah ppl and keep keeping mwah

ps. I aint a poking type of chink fyi

Did it work

2006-10-13T23:29:00.000-07:00

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

2006-10-13T23:08:00.000-07:00

Geez everything is startin to look and feel and taste the bloody same until i'm outside in the nice cool breeze and the sun is blinding my eyes i wish i could just live in the sunlight forever.

I feel like i don't want to rite anything coz i don't want to reck anything once you've said something or written someting down or acknowledged something it goes all down hill coz you know its happening and you think that hey can i stop it and you find out that yeah you stop it wreck it and fuck it up therefore hate yourself forever noticing something so meaningless!

blah blah blah if i was given the option to talk about my life and how unsemi-shit it is i think i wouldn't do it coz i know someone wants to hear it or would i do coz they do and i know they'll listen. I'd like that no one has to care about what i mean half the time but its nice when someone can jsut freaken listen to you moan and when they can't its suchhhh a major annoyance coz you know you basically do it for them all the time even if its not realised. Not talking bout anything specific coz i never do i'm a half is awesome half is crappy and i just want to be funking alone kind of girl. But i guess everyone is like that except no one really knows coz noone wants to really hear someone complain but tell me how do you know when someone is complaining or really having a major difficult prob????? Thats why i hate ppl that funking make up buulllshit that has never taken place or just take all the attention coz it will seem that you dont do that then obviously you have no problem and that you are all dandy when duh you are all but dandy! But i don't know thats just me the boy who cried wolf got what he deserved

bye and don't think that i'm riting this becuz i want ppl to think about my life and who the hell i really am coz i know who i am and thats all that matters its just that things need to be brought out on to pages or words i prefer somewheere where no one really goes to know me.

vacations a funny word

2006-10-05T18:55:00.000-07:00

I'm in the library and it seems this is where i come before my shifts every morning to do some catch up.

I was going to rite heaps more like about how i broke down the computer this morning and my calfs are killing me but i have forgotten and are finding riting in the morning not so great so mayb next week i'll have more to report mwah loverz

ITS A LONG WAY TO THE TOP IF U WANT TO R'n'R

2006-09-28T22:24:00.000-07:00

mwhahehehahahah evil- the sound of an excite me about the long sleep ins this weeken so woooeeeee here comes the sleep ins and catch ups mwah

Waking empty

2006-09-24T23:31:00.000-07:00

i unfold..........

BAM BAM BOM BARA EYEAH EYEAH OWOO WOHO

i said i'm holding out,holding out,ohhh

NO ONE WILL EVER BEAT THAT MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUMMMY

Meaning to say.....

2006-09-24T22:44:00.000-07:00

I JUST WON SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!! woot woot yay first time i have won something besides life hehehe errrr....anyway i won tickets to go see little miss sunshine ofcourse i have no idea what the movie is about but YAYA!!! i'm a little cinema goer tonight

work was funzy coz i only had like 5 hours sleep and that was great having to get up early after all whats that saying early bird gets the worm? in my case the "your a good friend,gggood gggod friend" memo from a downsydrome man while waiting to cross the road which was in no way scary just makes you see how really swweet they are no matter how different they appear ;) okay just thought i'd come in here and say that so good bye mwah and....VEGENCE SHALL ALWAYS BE MINE heheheh

2006-09-04T19:02:00.000-07:00

HELLO Mr.Sun!!!!!

2006-08-30T22:47:00.000-07:00

Pretty houses are distructing

2006-08-24T19:04:00.000-07:00

dude did i spell that right???

so who have i been you may be wondering ey?

well i'm doing ite xpt for the freaken lathergic feeling i get rite about..........now and the entire day i am doing well the same. Work is a bore for like the three seconds i thought i was in heaven something three seconds later reminded me i am doomed in hell, hey but don't worry its okay i've had subway heheheh old but still funni. I've had like the first week of late shift this week then next week is early and so on and so forth and i really enjoy the early shift 7.30 - 2pm its really fun coz it goes past really quickly and i can just turn up work alone til nineish then everyone starts coming stay for the rush and leave fun! But the boss is leaving next year coz of the fact that fat mandi as my sister has started calling her, (of the wedge) is pregnant. doom doom doom she tripped over my wet floor the other day and in a way i wanted to burst out laughing and like usual she went home told mommy and i got told the next day so as you can see working in a family based workplace isn't as fun as it seems! So i say that i want a new job and need to get a new job but this girl aint doing much to make pigs fly, i guess once the comfort hits in its a bit harder to let go off the pillow.

Well thats about it really oh and by the way never NEVER go to the gym thinking that your going to get 14 days free coz by the end you've realised that you just gave them your card number and the period in which the can transfer the money into their account every fortnight and it aint funni that its 60 bucks a month that you don't have coz what you do have is a thousand+ debt with the gov and house rent and a mortgage well scratch the mortgage but you know waht i mean. geez i hate zest. well toodles mwaha mwaha

I hope your babies look like....

2006-08-22T18:16:00.000-07:00

"Oh, i hate throwing up in public it's so embarresing!"
- Oh i know me too! huh

heheheh best movie ever i love Michelle crazy crazy little blonde woman!

2006-08-22T18:14:00.000-07:00

Unspoken Stops

2006-08-20T18:49:00.000-07:00

Selflove is warrented.
Happiness is overrated.
Sadness is unlimited.
Hate is a game.
Love is pain.
Denial is a given.
Pain is the only cure.
Awareness is a bitch.

I've never plucked!!!!!!!?

2006-08-07T18:56:00.000-07:00

....u got u got u got what it takes to make me lose my man.....its hard to control myself, it's hard to control myself from jumping on you like i wanted to! I GOT A HUG AND HE REMEMBERED MY NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sex--y!

Evil...maybe..?

2006-08-03T22:22:00.000-07:00

so shes peeing blood and didn't come to work today and i'm talking bout Nicole and for some reason i don't care if she has a miscarriage this girl aint comforting her!!!! I feel bad for the unborn faetus but i could careless that its happening to her the way she treats us is like we are dirt in the morning and sunshine in the afternoon.Meh well just thought i'd let you one person know about that ps i think her mom wants her to miscarriage becuase oh its out of wedlock the poor bastard!

YEAH JASON MRAZ TWO MORE DAYS TO GO WHORES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10mins

2006-07-25T21:33:00.001-07:00

ah i'm on break and seeing i had time i thought i'd pop over and say g'day to y'all oh how sad marissa cooper is dead and will no longer return xpt in flashbacks oh sad i didn't think it was sad til she woke up and started telling ryan to stay thats when i was like oh no she can feel it and its sadder coz she is telling ryan to stay with her poor guy.

Work is meh i'm starting to feel like its not work and not play just something i do and get money i like some of the ppl but i still have a hollow feeling with my future there hopefully there isn't one. Okay well i gtsta go and can't wait til next weeken when i'm gonna party all weekend YAY! mwah

2006-07-24T19:11:00.000-07:00

hah hahahahahahah yes yes yes hahahahah oh Aunty ARa all over again!!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-21T00:19:00.000-07:00

i'D LIKE to congratulate my aunty in El salvador in doing the linares women impossible and actually getting MARRIED, well it aint impossible but most of us women are cursed i believe in the area of togetherness or lucky to have had even if it was to be lost! Ahh oh so cute her high school sweet heart and her are finally tieing the not this sunday! wait next sunday oh the 30 anyway oh i'm sooooo happpppy for her it's like a true love story....there were tears, rebellion, triumph and life changing experiences with the odd father never speaking to the daughter because the guy has shamed the family deal but yeh apart from that it's a fairytale come true and oh gosh its sooo romantic thinking if it can happen to my aunty it can happen to me after all same blood line hehehehh okay mwah and just wanted to share that

Tick Tock

2006-07-13T00:47:00.000-07:00

hey there y'all i'm back for the moment....

wow hmmm its been an awesome week even though nothing special has happened xpt for me feeling really good about the things around me at the moment. I know this is the worst point in times coz its when you can easily be struck down but i'm in love with life and every breath i take is like inhaling only goodness and happiness corny but true! Last week at work i was nearly fired for nearly blacking out the entire store but boohoo mistakes happen and i have learnt alot from it!

well i gtsta go but i really am cutting back on my net talks wit y'll as i feel maybe the more i express the more i depress???? well hope Darren leaves big brother and hope that Amz can do it! mwah

2006-06-28T18:05:00.000-07:00

How much for that other one???

Eww please leave it on

Loosen up my Buttons

2006-06-26T17:06:00.000-07:00

"i'm telling you to loosen up my buttons babe
But you keep frontin' me
saying what you goin' to do to me
but i aint seen nothing yet"

Oh my lord just a little higher...So i'd like to say congrats to Emz for turning a big 18 this saturday and also for allowing us to be able to have one of my best nights out with her and my other gals.

So it was everything and a bit more than i wanted! But this night was not one that i will soon forget especially for so many reasons.
1. This was my first night out with my fav chickies
2. It was the first night that i was able to let my hair down since after party last year
3. I didn't have to worry about anything going wrong becuz i was having fun
4. Things went well even if i do have plenty of bruises every where on my body!!!!!
5. Thats a secret!

Yeah it was definately one of my favourite nights out! First we met up for dinner then afterwards we went to Church but it was closed so we wandered to Hindley where we waited around about 1 or more for places to open, nothing opens before 10 anymore and no where is really free entry. We went to Red Square first then left to go to room 108 to get kicked out then wandered around the streets looking to see what was happening, we went to the Isobar where there was a lot of "naught, sexy, dangerous" dancing on the balcony happening which to me was funny, the night ended in Basement where we umm me became very "relaxed" and i can't belive how much fun that place was! for me anyways, lets see i had about 7 of those free shotties. I had like 5 cards then kept going up the stairs to get kmore from the security guard. At first i was like hey this isn't so bad i can't feel it but by the end oh my gosh, believe me i know how i got these bruises! hehe it was an awesome night that ended with Emzie and i catching a taxi home at like 4am i think? The next day was so chilled xpt i think i should have stayed in bed but we went to ttp and developed my fots which turned out brilliant! Okay mwah ppl love youz and ii can't wait for the next time we meet again! toodooles

Pat and the Stranger

2006-06-23T00:28:00.000-07:00

So farr i have ummmmmmmmm gotten very angry and starting to get visible lines on my forehead ahhhhhhhh

i can't help it for some reason lately i have been really stressed and very anxious about what i have no idea, appt becuz i crave carbs i am sexually frustrated - pft and these people think they know everything and if i crave ice cream i am substitutin something or other but its pretty cool i agree with most of that stuff.

I'm peed of coz at work i feel like i can't get time of and if i ask i get slandered for it! Tres ridiculous! But of course it doesn't matter for now but later on in life when i know that i can leave and work somewhere else i will....meh my carefree whinges. I act as if everyting is okay there but once i leave i get heart pupitations and hard breathing problems! Errr work at the moment sucks xpt i gettn more money which is oh so good specially coz tomorrow night i'm spending big - if i drink....i mite....i will..........i so can. I'm going to the bottolo before and getting a four pack of bacardi so if i'm tipsy i'm sorry. Nah i wouldn't do that but i'm drinking two before i leave.

Errr i could've been out partying tonight Stacey invited me to her party bash and Kylie asked me to the Vic but i had to unfortunetly turn both down????wat the? Yeah like always work got in the way but never mind i don't feel that left out coz if i wanted to go bad enough i could. but meh no ones payin me! heheh Okay loverz i love you all i'd like to thank Pat and the Stranger for making my day today! :) They were oh so swwweeet coz they said it was the best cuppas they had ever had and both were made by who? well moi ofcourse hahah i love it when i get it right aha mwah

Cant complain

2006-06-21T17:44:00.000-07:00

So, hows work?
- uh you know i can't complain, no literally i can't! I signed papers and everything!!!

hahahahahahahahahahahah

after that line i could not stop laughing, i was the only one like always i went with mum and she was like "what did she say? What so funny?, i don't get it!" hhehehe i didn't know why but i found that hilarious and the rest of the movie it was sooo brill xpt for Samaire let down and her other friend and yeah kind Li-Lo besides that the screenplay was extremely enjoyable! heheheh so much echoed laughter

Just My Luck!

2006-06-20T17:45:00.000-07:00

Yay, i got coffee training last night which was tres bien actually poo poo it wasn't it was what i already knew but he did answer some valid questions of mine, like "when should i not burn the milk" answer " never" heheh no i knew that but yeah he taught me when to know yep don't serve that woman. We have a new person at work her name is Monique and no she aint french or contrary to what i believed she is not American and that is not a fake accent. She's meh i don't really find that we have been able to talk besides work and all but when i do talk to her i feel a little bit brushed off which is kinda rude coz you'd think that you'd want to be friends with the ppl you workin with coz hello its a tight group. Kate is goin well but i believe that becuz she is Sue's daughter she is most likely being tred around also i can see her crying if someone does really tell her off like i get told off everyday which is weird coz now i am so not sentimental to anything that i do, if i do it i could rarely care very much. "the coffee tastes like its burnt!" "i am truly sorry i will make another (not, i could careless, i hope you burnt yaself!" heheh see thats what goes through my head and i no longer have sincerity in my apologies becuz i apologize a dozen or more times a day so the sincerity is out and full on fake worrying is in. Tell me i did something wrong and i'll do this look of concern but in reality its "F@#^&, i don't really give a damn, just fire me already damn it!" I think i really like working there! And in no way is that sarcastic i've gotten comfortable and use to it and frankly do not want to depart from that daily routine but i guess when you take abuse as a part of daily routine or even bottled anger thats when you know GET OUT, GET OUT QUICKLY! Besides i'm still young but meh i'll probably really go when Katia goes on maternity leave.

Last night this guy came in fully feral! and becuz we didn't serve the master on time he bloody through a coke bottle over the counter! Freakin Ferals i can't remember the last time i had such a feral customer. In maccas i can't really recall anyone that was feral coz y'know you ignore that their feral after awhile, so this was my first freak in a while. It was actually quite frightning and i was really shakin coz that seriously if he had the chance he could've whacked that into me and then it would've fallen in the oil and burnt me. Seriously scary stuff!

While walking here i walked past a little bakery and for some reason Ukha came into my head and now i am craving it! I'm asking mommy to make it as soon as i get home! It is oh so yummy but oh soooo dry unless you have sauce with it. Its like potatoe i think its in the potatoe family but it is sooooo goood and i can't wait i shall ask her to make it asap *pretty please*. Oh man the other thing i can not seem to get of my mind and want and need so badly, if i was pregnant i'd make my husband get it is...SUGAR CANES!!!!!!!!! Frickin hell i'll walk past a wood place and just have memories of when i was in El Salvador running around the wood cutters sucking of sugar canes...oh those were the days of a happy little el salvadorean child, or even sitting behind the ute just sucking and chewing at the ends of them....oh swwwwweeeet honey! Drooling, drooling heheh oh how i wish, i had a sugar cane....

Okay i guess i better be off coz y'know its getting to be 11 when i start worksie work so yeah off i go to serve another life sentence, YAY but after work IF i get out on time mommy and i are going to go see Just My Luck hopefully its good. after reading an interview of Li-Lo in Cosmo i have come to the conclusion that this girl is stupid, an airhead and really thinks she's like the characters she plays let me explain. Now this quote to some ppl might be reasonable but to me it's just skanky and she would never get one coz she aint got talent.

"would you ever do a nude scene"

Li-Lo - i love being topless infront of ppl and would never rule out doing a nude scene unless it was going to automatically win me an oscar!" - eww as if she'd win an oscar just coz she' nude the girl needs to learn how to act first! But i still love her mvies just coz of the storylines and most don't require her to have acting abilities just teenage life experience.

2006-06-19T00:30:00.000-07:00

Kitty Poo

2006-06-19T00:20:00.000-07:00

Yay today was a good day besides Toni pow pow coming up and saying my coffee tasted like burnt milk and how he had never had such a horrible cuppa in his entire coffee drinking life....well boohoo noone else cared! heheh no it didn't make my day but what did was seeing Amz for the first time in like how long i don't know but it was good coz we didn't talk but it didn't seem like it was that long ago that we saw eachother i think she is the only person i like at that cafe seriously and theres like seven other workers there! tragic! Newho i beta be of i've been trying to do some serious thonking bout what to purchase for someone but i am totally and blindly lost i have no clue and i think they already have waht i purchased at the mall (poo poo) but hopefully they still love it coz i do! mwah mwah ppl love you loving me (gosh i do like myself)

P.s did anyone watch the soccer last night yeah ronaldho or what ever if you didn't know any of te socceroos names now ya do don't cha! They put up a preettyy tight defence even if they didn't score.

Oh i'm off to see my sister the wonderful sister of mine! Oh if i didn't mention this before i'd like to congratulate her and her bf! Yay i could soon be a reallll auntie! wow i love it! Mwah children

Oh the relief of venting

2006-06-15T17:44:00.000-07:00

okay i've decided for some reason that i wanted to let something come out, something that maybe everyone kinda had a clue on but i've never discussed the reasons or if it was true.

.....yes i have decided to rite about my shocking weightloss which started last year. Wow i had everyting scripted in my mind as to how i was going to rite this but oh well i'll just fluke it now. Okay so i do realise that last year i did a lot A LOT of weight and that it might have seen like i did have an eating disorder but the fact of the matter is that i actually lost that weight i belive normally i mean i didn't not eat coz i was afraid of putting on weight i didn't eat coz i wasn't hungry believe me i ate the right foods the reason was mainly coz i excercised i walked to school, colonnades and why???? mainly coz i didn't want to waste bus trips when i could walk but also i know that it was becuz of my competetive side coming out. I don't really want to blame anyone in particular as they weren't really the reason for my decision to lose a few kilos. Everyone always says that i look different and i'm not that same girl that i use to be with a "glee" in my eye and let me tell you guys someting...i'm loving that i'm not that gullible, naive girl that was severly and i mean really depressed through out my whoooolllleee entire time at high school until i got to year 11. I did things that some of you mite seriously not believe before this time and acted in such ways that are seriously disgusting and i am so glad that i have left those ppl and things in the past! When i think about things i just get disgusted and really feel dirty. Now for those of you who might say you know me i'm sorry coz you don't really theres a huuuugeee part of my life i keep hidden and i just wish that in a way i had never come to Australia! Its hard to explain things to ppl that belive my life is fine and they'll just bitch about how i'm trying to make ppl feel sorrry for me yada yada yada but thats not at all true i'm doing this for myself, so that later in life i can look back and now that i did look things in the eye and face it. I believe that if i was still in El Salvador close to my grandmother so many things would not have happened to me as they severly did when i moved here.

Losing weight wasn't really the main reason for my new lease of life but actually not letting someone win the battle, i guess this showed me how i'll do anything to not let others beat me. But it was also a thing for me coz i knew i wasn't happy and yeah it actually did make a difference i am a lot more happy and confident in my self becuz i actually believe in myself, i know i can do things and it made me a whole lot more active and healthy. But things have changed since then aswell i mean i have put on weight mainly becuz my thyroid has cleared up and coz i haven't been as rushed to get moving. The other clinger in my life to lose weght was ofcourse formal what can i say this was the one that was the fundamental reason for it why? i wanted to look good in my dress and i did! Believe me losing weight was never an eating disorder for me like i didn't throw up or starve myself contrary to what the majorety of ppl thought if i was hungry i did eat but i just didn't eat sugar and i love everyting that i ate.

Okay well i better go now wow that sums it up pretty well and i can't belive it's just two paragraphs in length! mwah ppl love you all for caring

Could a chicken quak

2006-06-13T18:03:00.000-07:00

howdy howdy howdy so i haven't posted in a while coz y'know nothing much to report and i got quite lazy! Newho i haven't done much in terms of work and study but i have gone out alot to see live shows which has become my new thing if i like the bands.

Okay well i'm off i'd love to stay and rite about things that are in the mome rite now but y'know what it's way tooooooo long now i understand half the ppl that don't post its not that you got nothing to post about its the fact your sick of posting things in the past but don't worry i'll be sure to be back to my posting moods sooner than two years later toodles mwah

No study, test 2hrs

2006-06-01T20:09:00.000-07:00

So our role play was okay i must say even though it was muy boring for others i loved it coz i pretty much rote the entire thing! Now i have a test and frankly i decided why should i put myself in the position of stress and worry when half the things i study are useless nonsense i don't need in the test! Well i shall try to study during lesson which is not really a lesson since we finished on wednesday. Okay toodles and mwah haha ha

Wish me Luck! :)

2006-05-30T17:02:00.000-07:00

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

coz you on my mind got me losing, second guess my sanity, my tummies up.
take me on it, head over heels, sos please someone help me, its not healthy!!!!

Coz you on my mind

Just thought i'd pop in......

2006-05-25T01:49:00.000-07:00

Hmmm not much has happened to me recently since my most awesome kick ass weekend well so far .....

I could rite stuff about it but i am sooooo not in the mood y'know to jitty to express it! All i will say is that it was THE BEST time i have had in a while since oh i don't know in a while. End of Fashion are terrific and i am glad i was able to witness one of their best concerts if i do say so. The downside is i think me caught Marcus's cold, aunties cold, nephews cold and also sisters cold. heheh bloody sick ppl why why????

Alrite i better leave before i rumble on bout nothing like the nothing that is my drink bottle hahahha

Last night we went out for tea and oh my gosh ppl are so shabby when it comes to food. I don't know why but if i ever go out to a pub i stick to my main food of Parmagina - its safe and delicious well depending where you go and last night it was ite nothing to exciting so i will now leave you with this

"thanks, but your still abusing!" hahahahahahahah oh that makes me laugh

Tryin' to hold u

2006-05-18T22:53:00.000-07:00

I’m gonna change like
I never knew
It’s Friday night with the beauty in my head
It’s gonna make way for something new
All these people will never understand

Oh strain whenever
We carry it alone together
It keeps my lungs from ever
Trying to hold you

I’m gonna change like
I never knew
It’s Friday night with the beauty in my head
It’s gonna make way for something new
All these people will never understand

Oh strain whenever
We carry it alone together
It keeps my lungs from ever
Trying to hold you

Oh ties we sever
We can stay young forever
It keeps my lungs from ever
Trying to hold you yeah

Oh strain whenever (oh strain whenever)
We carry it alone together (we carry it alone together)
It keeps my lungs from ever (it keeps my lungs)
We could stay young forever
We could stay young forever (we could stay young)
We could stay young forever

Trying to hold you yeah
I’m still trying to hold you yeah
I’m still trying to hold you
-oh strain

Go Green!

2006-05-18T22:38:00.000-07:00

Woo Woo tomorrow night is going to be the best night of my life since quitin Uni coz it means i don't have to study which means i can do watever like go to the fabulous most terrific performers ever END OF FASHION!!!! yeah thats right there on tomorrow night and i am soooo absolfucklutely looking forward to it! Downside i'm working before it but mehy i'll ask cousin if they can drive me but first what to wear???????? Arrrrrr they are divine "lock up your daughters, don't delay........we can strain together, trying to hold you" Ahhh i'm in love and the lead singer is my cure! hahah well yeah

I just had spanish and it was one of the best classes yet! Sum weird freak dude came in half way and we all swear he was stoned and had a mental problem so these two not so good together.It was way relaxed and the atmosphere was just everyone having fun and being cool. It was mi favorita classe de que empesamos! Natalia es muy sincera. Mejor que Alan. So we came to a conclusion that we are having a party after our TWO HOUR FINAL EXAM! i never knew about that, the exam. The Spanish club is going to organize it for us and not just our Spanish club which should be even more terrrific. Ahh i'm sooo cooky right now just the best feeling today was a good day i really liked it and after work tomorrow it's only gna get better. Oh yeah plus sunday night motion city soundtrack. Like em' to.

Before going to spanish i went to see Antonio participar en el dia de deporte. He was ment to be in the red team but got placed in the green which was good for me coz i was wearing nearly all green. He was so adore and after the sack race he was beat. hehe little cutie

heheToodles

Fue facil....para mi

2006-05-11T23:14:00.000-07:00

So i just finished my Spanish test which i was totally relaxed about. Last night i went to sleep at half past nine coz i was so beat and then this morning i woke up at 6.30 to only miss my bus then wait in the cold for another one in the city to get here at a good time of 8.30. Now i did study some things but not alot and strangely enough it paid off. Last time i struggled to comprehend what it was that i was spose to learn but this time it didn't really matter too me, damn cocky attitude. But as i have finished the test i thank myself, coz damn it was actually pretty darn easy. Now i don't want to complain that it was too easy but i think i would have loved something harder. I guess i found it easy becuz i had to write what it was about, all i had to use were the guiding questions on what i like to do and what my plans are. Somehow tho the hardest thing with anything easy is knowing when to stop! I went over my word limit but hopefully that doesn't really get noticed. It was spose to be 150, i know how good but i did go over a few 80 words more meh it was good. I guess i learnt some stuff in the time that i was not caring.

It was easy for me but i think like last time Roulan was having a bit of trouble with it. Poor chicky we have to start to get together and discuss our role plays which should be exciting *cough* well i like spanish but i feel errr towards the role plays for some reason i feel i'm gna forget want ever we role played in the beginning heheh no i won't do that.

Ohhh today i found out that the Law and Commerce group is having a "ball" yes i know very thrilling! But i'm not sure if i want to go.....i don't know anyone! Arhhhhh but it does sound very exciting and for the one person i know i'm sure that she'll invite me to know her friends so it will be good. I've noticed that it's sooo much easier to enter a room where you know noone than to enter a room with a mix of ppl that are familiar to you. This is becuz you have noone to cling to therefore you have to get out and about and talk to the new faces walking past and things like that. After you get to know everyone you find the people that you have common interests with as to appose the one person that you would have said only hey to coz your buddy was around to keep you comforted. Ah meh i think i might it is starting to sound oh so much fun the more i think about it and i need stuff to do! Its only 50 bucks ppl and free drinks alllllll night from 7 til 5 hours later not really thinking i'm gona drinkk where i hardly know the ppl but its just nice knowing i have the option too!

Ciaoy Cioay Mwhahah Mwah love you all! Mwah

No Lo Creo!

2006-05-11T16:09:00.000-07:00

Weatherman Lives on in our Hearts.....

2006-05-09T17:34:00.000-07:00

Pump it Louder, Pump it Louder

they won they won they won they won they won yes yes yes wohooooooo

Rockstar

2006-05-08T17:16:00.000-07:00

got this in my head now:
"Oh think twice, it's another day for
You and me in paradise
Oh think twice, it's just another day for you,
You and me in paradise"

But woke up with this one on my mind:....
You think the way you live is okay
You think posin'
Will save the day
You think we don't see
That you're running
Better call your boys
'Cause I'm coming
[Chorus]

You can't be me
I'm a Rock Star
I'm rhyming on the top of a cop car
I'm a rebel and my .44 pops far

Something's on your chest
Better get it off
There'll be no one left when we set it off
We ain't gonna take it no more
Since

It's almost over now
Almost over now

You have to plenty of time
There was no rush
But it was your dream to be like us
You're in dreamland so you don't care
And as you wait
I'm standing there

Me love this one`~

Untouchable Memories - arrrhhh

2006-05-07T17:09:00.000-07:00

It's all because of you
I'm feeling sad and blue
You went away now my life is just a rainy day
And I love you so
How much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely
Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me
Now the love so true
That once turned all my gray skies blue
But you disappeared
Now my eyes are filled with tears
And I'm wishing you were heare with me
Soaked with love all my thoughts of you
Now that you're gone I just don't know what to do

If only you were here You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine once again
You'd be mine oh mine
But in reality
You and I will never be
Cuz you took your love away from me

_SPOKEN_: Girl, I dunno what I did to make you leave me.
But what I do knowthat since you've been gone there's such an emptiness inside.
I miss you and wish you'd come back to me

If only you were here
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine once again
You'd be mine oh mine
But in reality
You and I will never be
Cuz you took your love away from me
You took your love away from me

- This song has been in stuckk my head ever since i woke up this morning!!!!! arrrghhh

One, 2 cha cha cha

2006-05-04T22:48:00.000-07:00

Ah man i think that i really need to get myself into doing something but i don't know what???? I think i should inform my boss that i have forgone my university studies and only go for Spanish so she can give me work or something. Ak but when i think about it i just start to wish i didn't work there. I can just imagin her face and reaction....there is sooo much resentment there but i shall not talk about that. I think we are moving at the end of the year so that should help move my mood along if only for a while. Maybe i should go on a journey somewhere but where to and with whom? I think i really will go to church they have heaps of outings and the social part and spiritiual part might make me relax more. I think i'm still edgy from something i think its the thought of not having anything to fall back on. I mean i finished year twelve but what now....now i have that hollow feeling in my heart, soul, spirit, mind etc. I don't think i would feel so right about my decision besides the fact it was but for the sweet words others have said to me. Really really APPRECIATED! I'm in the women's centre and just wasting a bit of my time but i'm thinking that maybe i should do..............no no no more thinking i think if i live my life without worry something good is bound to happen i can't rush my destiny or predict it. If i am spose to do something in life it will come looking for me but mind you i will kick start half of the things meant for me in life. I can't allow destiny to rule my entire being...after all i aint Thereasa Lopez Fitzgerald heheh

Ciao Ciiaoy :*

A family must

2006-05-03T18:56:00.000-07:00

Last night after uni i went to Marion and as i was contemplating whether or not to get a yoghurt from the yoghurt shop coz i wasn't hungry i just wanted one i heard this person go "oh hello what are you doing????" It was bubbly and quiet. I turned around and there was One. She was telling me about how she too was thinking of dropping out well how she is dropping out and that she will be returning to Korea to her family and boyfriend - i never knew this! heheh She was a really nice girl, she said that all her cofidence had been lost and that been hear made her feel really nutty and abandoned. Oh as she said these words it made me think back about how hard it would be for all the transfers here living in Australia studying anther language foreign to them. It made me start thinking about Roulan and Chandra, they have both been in Australia for quite sometime and both miss their family very much. Its such a hard thing to do just for a better life but in the end i guess its worth it. I rmbmr when chandra took me home once and i was asking him about his family life and how he felt not been able to see them and he said that he was use to it and that he wasn't as close to his family as a traditional indian family. He has been in schooling ever since a little boy and can only communicate throught phone calls and things that aren't neccessarily enough when you want to be with your family. I am thinking of asking him to an Indian restaurant so that he can complain about it! I don't know why but the thought of that amuses me! ~ strange.

Well i have to go get my assignment and then do Step. Ahhh last night i had ttb and oh my goshh i was like what is she doing this is weak....but now my but and thighs are killing me. There between numbness and stiff so sore ouchy ouchy

Wher am I?

2006-05-03T18:38:00.000-07:00

Well I never pray

But tonight I'm on my knees yeah

I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah

I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now

But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

No change, I can't change

I can't change, I can't change

But I'm here in my mindI am here in my mind

And I'm a million different people

from one day to the next

I can't change my mind

No, no, no, no, no, no, no

I can't change

I can't change it'

Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life

Trying to make ends meet

Trying to find some money then you die

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down

You know the one that takes you to the places

where all the veins meet yeah

You know I can't change, I can't change

I can't change, I can't change

But I'm here in my mind

I am here in my mind

And I'm a million different people

from one day to the next

I can't change my mind

No, no, no, no, no

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Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Love Me All The Time

Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Love You

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Pulled Me Out Of Time

And Hung Me On A Line

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You

Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe I'm A Lonely Girl

Who's In The Middle Of Something

That She Doesn't Really Understand

Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe You're The Only ManWho Could Ever Help Me

Baby Won't You Help Me Understand

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You're With Me All The Time

Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Leave You

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Help Me Sing My Song

Right Me When I'm Wrong

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You

Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe I'm A Lonely Girl

Who's In The Middle Of Something That She Doesn't Really Understand

Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe You're The Only Man

Who Could Ever Help Me

Baby Won't You Help Me Understand

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I'm a living sunset

Lightning in my bones

Push me to the edge

But my will is stone

Fools will be fools

And wise will be wise

But i will look this world

Straight in the eyes

What good is a man

Who won't take a stand

What good is a cynic

With no better plan

Reality is sharp

It cuts at me like a knife

Everyone i know

Is in the fight of their life

Take your face out of your hands

And clear your eyes

You have a right to your dreams

And don't be denied

I believe in a better way

Chastitiy 108

2006-04-30T23:48:00.000-07:00

Ahh for some reason even though i had no uni last week i felt like i had a bit of a hectic week doing who knows what coz me can't remember. What i do remember is that i went to the gym and did a step class it was quite interesting i found out several things about myself

i hate change - moving one side to another with no warning
I dislike older ppl being able to do things i can't - by old i mean seniors
I am totally the most uncoordinated person - i have two left feet, arms and somehow a hip that only like the right
Music does make me moove it and groove it - my moove and groove it i mean my wait nope i don't know but i like it
Once i have learnt something after 20 or so tries i can master it! - Basic step!!! heheh : P

I have also come to conclusion that i am totally addicted to any mvie that may be from India, well actually i have basically been captured by Indian culuture and beliefs ever since i was little seeing as my best friend was Indian. I was always so intrigued about what she did and why she did it. I can say this about the hispanic culture as well i thinks it's coz they're both so intense about what it is that they do in their lives. Its not a matter of doing it its a matter of living it! I don't know meh Anywho i was bored on Sunday so i went to see Water at the Palace Nova cinemaplex and i totally ador it! Oh my gosh i cried like a little whore through out the ending! It was soooo incredibly moving usually i don't cry i want to but tears never fall but in this movie i was like oh the ppooor women! BASTARDS! Chandra assures me this does not happen anymore but at the end it said that widows are still be treated that way even though laws have been passed to prevent it. "it happens so that its one less mouth to feed"! that night i also watched Straight from the heart and oh those are the roles i want to play! - if i was an actress.

Okay so on Sat i ended up meeting Ruolan (i have to learn how to rite it) at 10 and we wnt to Red Square coz we didn't know who was waiting we just lined up first. Oh jeez the bouncer was soo cute dang those blue eyes, if i wasn't such a dweeb when it comes to talking to the opposite sex. This is what i did when he asked a question "yep,heheheh ohh heheh he" and looked away - DWEEB heheh oh i love myself. Well he let us in and dude we were in there for like 5mins alone with no one else besides the staff. We had the whole thing to our selves but then he let other ppl in slowly. and i am so peed of too coz i was spose to get a remixology cd coz i was the first person/ppl in and me didn't get one. The songs are preety darn good but meh i will not forget another night. Anyway the boys in that club are freaking more showi off than the girls, they take the whole stage and just dance with one another!? I'm sure they weren't gay just really arrog. One fell on Ruolan and the other one kicked me...didiots. But it was cool i am in love with Red Square i have to take Emzie there on her bday - remind me woman! Neway 12 came and we met up with Kylie and her buddies. We danced with them for awhile then moved to the other room where we went on those mini stages that you can climb on oh i loved it can't remember what we danced to but i loved that song. Then my absolute fav song at the moment came on SOS i danced my little booty off and then realised Soul or Sol? was looking at me funny so i like twitched then kinda moved slower heheh. Oh well we left coz the boys wanted to go to 108 which i must say is a freaken STRIPPER JOINT and we went in and sat down saw a few naked ladies one of which was called Chastity. She was really friendly and scammed the boys 30 for a table dance for Kylie. It was soo weird i couldn't stop giggling, Chastitiy was a nice girl she came from france appt they lie. She kissed Kylie _ on the cheek ppl at the end - Daniel was abit sore about that he wanted her! Then before we went some other girl started doin one next to us so we stayed coz the boys wanted to peek at her boos and i didn't giggle at all i was just like eeewww mostly coz she was fat and old but also coz it was just ewwww. I mean her body was just that a body it had no significance of beauty or anything it was just like skin and i didn't realise the face i was pulling unitl everyone looked at me and mimicked me, it was pretty rude i hope she didn't see. I mean i don't dislike them girls coz it takes a lot of guts and stupidity to that but ewww to think that was once.....heheheh

Okay thats way long and i am tooo tired to rite about everything so ciao ciao and mwah

Bada ta ta da da ta ta ta

2006-04-26T19:01:00.000-07:00

Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
I need to play the game again
All my friends are slipping in the mud,
Well it's a lot like dying, a lot like trying,
All my friends are misunderstood
I don't know which way to point my kiss,
Well it's a lot too clever, it's all too severe,
All my friends are cold in their graves
Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I guess it's okay,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
And I need to play the game again
All my friends are living in denial,
Well you ask no questions, I'll tell no secrets,
All my friends are trying to smile
I don't know which way to point my kiss,
Well it's a lot too clever, it's all too severe,
All my friends died right here
Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I guess it's okay,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
And I need to play the game again
I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I guess it's okay,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
And I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
And I need to play the game again

Autumn fun

2006-04-26T18:19:00.000-07:00

With my free time and all i decided that i would join the Flinders gym and after my two sessions i am really enjoying it! Last night was ttb and man nothing is hurting i expected things to be really sore this mornings but nothing is. We worked the thighs mstly as well as the butt! It was easy until we had to "hold, hold, hold it" ahhh man she knows what she is doing. Today i have Steps i'm not sure what that works but it should be fun..

Lets see....hmmm what have i been upto lately? Nothing much i've just been out shopping splurging my money where it aint needed to be splurged. But this month ahead is nothing but birthday after concert. First up i have KYLIE'S 18TH 2mrw nite, yeah thats right after turning 18 i have only clubbed 2, pathetic right? But wait did i say 2mrw nite, okay ladies i am really tired i mean Sat nite we will all be meeting at Red Square and partying her bday nite away! Rolan and i have decided to rock up earlier to get in for free then wait for the others to arrive. Oh its going to be good my first Uni friendship outing...how ador. I can't wait, i'm gonna wear my skinny jeans and some top thats in my wardrobe too bloody many to chose from. I wanna wear my heels but its gonna be raining. Im not sure about the sleeping arrangements but i'm not really hassled after all i can just catch a taxi and it only costs 12bucketybucks. But i think by the time we finish my bus service is gona be running....or i can just ask rolan if i can crash at her place.

In a fortnight i will be seeing Lior, an australian singer with the tunes of mraz....i think? It should be good and then after that i am sooooooooo rapped up about this one END OF FASHION!!!!!!! I so can't wait it should be awesome! hehehe i'm thinking of wearing my poka dot dress to this one, ooooo and my wedges, so ador. Okay okay gna surf the net then go to Steps., mwah ciao ciao

Let me Explain

2006-04-19T16:31:00.000-07:00

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!! - I'm gonna try

Its been a hard decision and ive rarely thought about it but it seems to be the best option for me. I am forgoing all studies at Flinders University and not coming back any time soon. This was a rushed decision that became clear straight after my assignment was underway. Believe me i tried and i am not one to give up, i searched, asked for help, tried so many times to attempt the questions but it is obvious that i have no idea what i am doing here besides wasting my money and time. Actually just wasting my money becuz i really do enjoy spending my time at uni learning and socializing with others.

ahh i rote that last week and i still feel really strongly about the decision i have come to make. I am postponing my studies and not returning until i feel that i am ready to study properly and if that is never then don't hate me. I had my first breakdown last week! It was weird everything was find i had bottled things up and then....well that was the last straw and i yelled, i smirked and broke down in tears. It is true i also disrespectd but i had to say what was on my mind and i thought that i would never be forgiven but i didn't have to be everyting i said was true and most of what was said back was true. Ofcourse i could never tell them that. I realised i don't know what i want but i do know this "study right now is not the best thing for ME, it was the best thing at the time but not for me". I just decided to come to Uni becuz well there was nothing else...and still there is nothing else xpt for me wanting to stop and look around my environment to see where i want to be this time next year. I want to do something where i am being trained while working, studying is no fun if no one is pushing you and i don't feel that uni does that for me. Mostly becuz your spose to be independant and all that jazz but i love been told what to do, when, where and exactly how. My last assignment i didn't finish and it was due to my stupidity and laziness, i could've done it, hell i got up early the day it was due just to help my friend yet i couldn't help myself. Ahh life is funny but i'v been feeling better lately and sleeping a whole lot of more! I want to finish the semester of Spanish but i am withdrawing from all other subjects.

This morning i got a message from Chandra and i felt bad replying that i would no longer be around or seeing him coz even tho he was bossy he was a good friend. Ciao Ciao

Falls APART

2006-04-16T22:02:00.000-07:00

Y IS THE AIR CONDITIONING ON WHEN IT IS FREEZING COLD OUTSIDE?

- libraries
- cinemas
- shopping centres
- public transport

All these places seem to find it amusing to have the bloody air cond on when it is obviously freezing and raining outside? Y? Y? can anyone explain to me why they do this? It's coz you hate the warm isn't it.....arrrrrrr

Movie Marathon last night slept thru parts of Eight Below, loved The Shaggy Dog then kinda liked Scary Movie 4.....but why was Dr.Phil in it? Emzie drove me to uni this morning or afternoon whichever what a doll! Mwah, she drives soooo cute. Every few seconds there would be a shift and your body just moves forward the goes back to its place heheh it was nice i sure as hell would not be able to drive a manual so i give her kudos for doing so. **. Its autumn yes it is and as lovely as the weather maybe i think i have expressed my frustration and annoyance with the cold. I love everything about Winter and Autumn xpt the cold, i love the rain, the sky full of dark clouds, the lightning, the thunder BUT I LOATH THE COLD! Yeah well thats it mwah and cya round locoz i love y'all peeps.

Jesus died for ME!...and you

2006-04-15T17:45:00.000-07:00

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

Wah wah wah i am so in a crazy mood lately. I reckon its coz i've been getting off my booty and getting well needed oxygen into my oh so sweet brain to help me function better. I've been jogging so much and i love it....dude i seriously could jog all day xpt i think my legs my have something to say bout that. I haven't done much for holz xpt work,work,work, oh and did i mention work. Oh yeah plus that other thing called shoppin! heheh

i saw nephew on fri and he is so ador! His starting to get way to grown up for his good. He talks with such a sophisticated proper articulation as if he is an adult. Well he tries, if you heard him speak you'd understand what i'm talking about jigga, heheh. Oh on thurs i saw the very oh so sweet popalitious Laura and she was cajun hot! - see this is such a strange mood for me, i think it's autumn everyting is sooooo goood at the moment, i feel like i'm on top of the world and the only thing that brings me down is my stress levels and insomnia. Newho as i was saying i saw Laura and she wants all us to go out so we should totally make this happen sometime soon. Another thing ahahah she told me bot Estrellz and how her hair had fallen out, into patches!!!! Ahahahah sorry but you don't understand i like her coz she was a good friend to me but somehow feel good to know that well....i could say but i'm not gonna. Appt she tried to bleach her hair 6x - eh you'd think after the 1st time you kinda would stop. Just so she could blonder her hair, which it is just really short,bright blonde and patchy heheheh.

Okay ladies and gentlemen i have to do an assignment which i know won't be done coz i don't know how to do it but as long as i can pretend? that i'm doin it then i don't care. Ah my family say that if i don't pass semester then if i don't want to come back then i shouldn't. In a way i didn't need their permission to stop but i'm glad i know that they feel okay with me just trying as much as i have this semester and i love their support. So believe me if i don't pass it won't be the end of the world for on the contarary it will be the beginning of something more even if it is doing miniscule? work. I don't care as long as i can go to sleep. I haven't had a goodnight sleep since last year. But ofcourse this doesn't mean i aint gonna try. I love studying i enjoy it, lame as it might be i really ador studying and look forward to coming to uni and being educated. So know i'm gona leave you with a farewell. mwah and ciao ciao

P.S HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!!

Chess?

2006-04-10T18:27:00.000-07:00

Don't really have much to post besides the fact its HOLIADAYZ!!!!

Yay i can relax.....well actually i can work. I worked last night and realised i have forgotten everything to do with the afternoon shift. Oops i don't think Chris will be happy heheh. Ciao and mwah pplz

Easter Celebrations

2006-04-06T17:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday after International Business lecture which was boring yet interesting Roulan and i went off and had lunch....she had lunch i had an apple. So while we were sitting there waiting for her lunch to be cooked in the microwave Rachel from our Spanish class came and sat with us. It was really weird coz before that i was telling Roulan how i was going to go the Easter Celebration that was being held by the Flinders Christian group coz a) i had nothing else to do for 5 yes 5 Hrs til my next lect and b) there was Hot Cross Buns ppl! Well as i was telling Rachel how i was waiting for that to come around she informed us that she was going to be talking at the celebration and that we should definately go. She also then gave me my c) reason for going...singing church songs!! - fav hobbie of mine. Newho it was really good coz it was the first time that well not really coz i'v had lunch with One and Roulan before but becuz of the language barrier it's sometimes hard to talk about things but for the three of us it was really good, we laughed, we talked, we awwwed and bitched as girls do. It was great. As we were all talking we came to the realisation that none of us had a BF and we were so cute coz we started dissing them and saying how they don't know how to shop or dress, it was like a little slumber party in the cafeteria. So after a while we decided that we are going to have a club for girls who have never had boyfriends.

As we were talking Kylie also from our Spanish class and accounting class came up and started to talking to us. She pulled up a seat and we got to talking bout birthdays, nude dancers on double decker buses, clubbing - we have all decided that wen Kylie turns 18 and Roulan turns 21 we are going club all night and might also do the mini bus club hops and ofcourse more bitching this time about food. I made Kylie buy a Ego Magnum only coz she wouldn't stop saying how much she wanted it so i told her to get it, she still hasn't forgiven me. heheh After 2 and a half hours of talking it was time to head of for the Easter Celebration, i kept promoting the Hot Cross Buns.

When we got there it was fairly empty..round 35 seats and 10 ppl including ourselves. But we weren't that surprised. It got underway and the first song we did I KNEW! It was "My Redeemer Lives" and it was good but they didn't Woo so i was let down but i actually took in the words. After that Rachel finally talked and before that i was trying to calm her down by telling her to imagine everyone naked but then i realised it was a church event so i said underwear which still didn't go down well so i said in there P.Js. Which i think worked coz she didn't seem at all nervous, its funny how you find things out and get lead places when you least expect it. Newho after that other ppl talked and more songs were sang but my "Keep the oil in the Lamp" was never sang....i was crushed! I really needed to pee so of i went to the loo and quickly returned for the long awaited Hot Cross Buns. My gosh they were ohh so good, mmmm i had never had them with butter and warm before so i was loving them. I had four pieces equally 2 BLOODY HOT CROSS BUNS NOT FOUR! - sorry the girls wouldn't let me live it down afterwards. They made it sound like i had eaten four whole ones and Roulan still says 4. Jeez. heheh

After that we went to our darn lecture which confused the heck out of me, but was soon forgiven when it finished! I went to TTP with mother and i bought 3 pairs of new shoes, a fluffy pillow, winter shirts and juice. While i was in Big W i got the sweetest message from Roulan. She has prepared Pork Stir-Fry and has packed a container full for me and one for herself! OH HOW SWEEET! - I love that girl, she so cute heehhe well ciao and i hope you got thru this okay. Mwah

Ps that was the best Thurs i have had at Uni! No ugly boring frees were boredly enjoyed

SAM SUCKS!

2006-04-04T22:34:00.000-07:00

We just got our exam results for Spanish back and it is good. Well it's great i got 100% auditiva and 85% escritura. Which is ite when you think about it but eh i'm so cranky. Sam got 100% and 98%! Loser. *poking tongue out* i'm not sure if you know this but i'm a sore loser so i'm quite upset :( well actually not really coz it's my own fault with my comfort of thinking i know how to spell in spanish when that was the MAIN reason i took this class. so i should get off my high horse and actually start learning my spelling accents, stupid accents. Well thats about it after chasing after Sam i'm puffed and staying here til 7 from 8 isn't helping me! I'm tired, cranky and have got micro lect and 2 hr tut. Kill me know! heh mwah loverz

P.S my I.B tutor tried to get me to talk today i chickened out leeaving one to take the lead so know i must do it becuz she knows practically nil to zero english and she went up infront of everyone. For shame me for shame me!

2006-04-04T19:30:00.000-07:00

i just realised that last post sounded like a poem, a poet me but a simpleton? Ohh sweeet

Am to Pm

2006-04-04T19:23:00.000-07:00

so my assignment deadline was yesterday unless you handed it in this morning at 9am. I had promised myself to do it by Tues last night but i was still unhappy with it and still unhappy with end result. However i would like to say that yes i did it and only for 45% based on my refrencing which i think sucks but i copied my lectures notes so everything should be dandy. "....i'm a twenty something, para para para dada"

So let me give ya a nice little tip - never leave things for the last minute!!!!!! I stayed up last night til 12.30 woke up at 6.00 run around, missed bus, walked, got rained on and showed up few minutes late but it all came well done in the end. I placed my assignment in the shoot and off i went with 15mins to spare. PHEWW

Assassination Of The Weatherman

2006-04-03T23:49:00.000-07:00

21C my ass!

In the Eye of the Tiger

2006-04-02T22:18:00.000-07:00

Stupid song is stuck in my head! So appaently accounting is really hard? Who would have thought.?/ stupid thing but hey i'm off to anther workshop and tutorial even though i had mine already just to make sure i get it! Ciao

2006-04-01T21:10:00.000-08:00

....THIIS IS WRONG.

We Are Scientists

2006-04-01T17:05:00.000-08:00

"I got a great idea I'm gonna wait right here I got a great idea I'm gonna wait right here While everything is adding up, up, up Everything is adding up, up, up"

I am totally crunching on these dudes, lead singer mainly. The video clip of this is soo funny especially when they're on the dance floor...those boys know how to crank it. heheh

S-O-S please someone help me. It's not healthy for me to feel this Y-O-U are making this hard? I can't take it see it don't feel right. S-O-S please someone help me, It's not healthy for me to feel this Y-O-U are making this hard?You got me tossing and turning can't sleep at night - Rhianna

Another one of my fav.!!! She's such a QT.

So last night i watched Neonflux and Walk the Line and a bit of In Her Shoes. I like Walk the Line it was good i still love Ray more. I thought Reese Witherspoon was pretty swell!

NeonFlux or whatever its called was reallllly crap! I can't believe that movie was made, it's better to not have made that movie that to have lived once. It was soo stupid things looked like they were put together at the last minute i'm so glad i didn't see it at the movies! Well chockies thats about it. I have to go do my assignment thats due on Tues and homework due tomorrow. Mwah

YIPEE!

2006-03-30T22:03:00.000-08:00

I know i aced my spanish...but flanked my economics, d'oh. Agh Spanish is worth 20% and economics nothing at the moment so YAY!

2006-03-30T14:52:00.000-08:00

Are you under the plant?

2006-03-30T14:42:00.000-08:00

So i saw nephew last night oh is he just becoming the most gorgeouesk child ever? I think so!

He is sooo darn affectionate and uses up way too much energy for a little kid. I went to my aunts last night for tea, i had stuffed capsicum and i totally thought they were grilled but no there battered? well put in egg then the saucepon and drowned in a sea of yummy sauce. So they were still great but i want to know what i was expecting. He made mum and i play with him for basically the whole night and it was Hide and Seek he chose. It was actually quite fun, little backyard...you have to be imaginative!. So it was really good, i love making him laugh his such a QT. I hadn't seen him in aagges and when i said i was tired he would fight back with "but you don't come and see me" arrgghh he knows how to argue a case. So i ended up playing with him then went to the shops and he is dramatically scared of the escalators. He held on to my leg soo tight, that boy has a grip. hehe

Well thats about it....wish me luck i have a Spanish exam in five hours, i'm freaking out Jerry! hehe. I made my mum help me revise til midnight last night. Poor thing she was soo tired, ah what a doll. Mwah

Kan-Ye Kan-Ye Kan-Ye

2006-03-29T14:38:00.000-08:00

Agghhhh it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooo goooood, it was terrific, it was tremendously great, it was AWESOME! I loved every single minute even the words/songs i didn't know i was into! My gosh this is going to be a hard one to beat after Kelly Clarkson i thought no one can beat her concert but oh my goosh it was way too good.

I loved the crowd they were a bit drogoish but hey we're in Adelaide, they were pretty cool. Kanye was oh so cute i just want to adopt him! He played some old songs i didn't know but they werer actually good i thought i wouldn't like them but i did so know i want his old album. Of course he did "Gold Digger" aghhh everyone went mad i just had to get off the couch and stand while taking photos of this hottie. "Jesus Walk" was out of doubt my favourite becuase i truly adore that song! He finished off with "Touch the Sky" before teasing all of us with numerous short raps he did before ending. He was a sly little thing coz he let us hang for like three mins so he could hear everyone chant his name at which i couldnt help but yell out "Mr. West" but it didn't catch on.. : ( so after several minutes of applause and demand he came out with his oh so gorgeous glasses and entertained us with songs he had forgotten but no one cared.

Agghhh it was the best night so far and i now can't wait to go see End of Fashion i hope they're good, they definately won't beat Kan-Ye hehe but i know i'll like it. I love their album...its soo awesome! heheh hahah mwah mwah mwah

I'm gna leave them high

2006-03-28T18:15:00.000-08:00

I'm gna leave them high

2006-03-28T18:05:00.000-08:00

Forgotton Words

2006-03-26T20:31:00.000-08:00

I love this weather! i love the look of the sky, the sound of the rain, the air on my nose and ears. Oh how i've missed it. the difference of when i walk down the street and see the leaves on the ground, the way everything feels and looks mmmmm i love it, oh but how i do hate the cold.

Warm Chocolates

2006-03-26T20:26:00.000-08:00

Fallen Petals of Time

2006-03-26T15:03:00.000-08:00

Maths=Confused me

2006-03-22T22:09:00.000-08:00

Oh i feel so glad Chandra just helped me do my graphs but i think i might have fustrated him coz he was trying to get me to do equations and i was totally lost that he started to get fustrated saying they were easy yet keeping his cool. I can't tell whether he is genuinely angry or just being himself?. Coz he doesn't know english very much and he mumbles i don't really know what is being said but he is a very nice person for taking the time to help me even coz he didn't have too! Another thing i noticed about him is his very pushy i'm not sure if it's becuz i'm a female or thats jst him but everytime we speak or do something he is very keen on taking the lead??? And he is also very domineering? I'm not sure thats the word but yeah he is still a cool guy and i'm glad his able to help me.

Tada now children i have to go to do more studies more assignments and more excercises from my accounting book. Mwah

P.S i'm so hungry coz my mummy is making me corn so when i get home i'm just going to munch away on that and i'm going to have it with mayo, tomatoe sauce and parmasean cheese oh plus butter ohhhhh mouth watering alritey mwah gotta go! : p

Can i get a Hand Clap

2006-03-22T00:04:00.000-08:00

AHAHAH i am so deliriously happy rite now coz i got five out of five for my micro test!!! Yay it mite not seem like much but i'm glad that i am getting there. Yay i love you all mwah ppl

This is me

2006-03-20T21:58:00.000-08:00

I don't eat my bananas i devour their outer skin then eat it....

....i love pastry it is my weakness as well as

i live to dance and sweat baby oh yeah....but i love to sit and read on my own.

I know all the words to all my fav songs, wel jst about.

I put the quilt over my head when it gets too cold in the bed....and i sleep with a pillow or blanket in between my knees.

...i'm not ashamed of burping but maybe farting.

I like fear in a way that is not the horror style or even murder mystery...it's more private and fun.

..Carrots are my fav treats and i love peanut butter and carrot sandwiches! Yummo

Bubble teas make me smile with glee while bruises make me gasp in stupidity heheh

I love my family and friends but would only die for the important ones! : P

I cause heartache and pain on those who truly care about me.....only coz i know i can hehe

I hide on my own and with others but i laugh and giggle among friends!

And i secretly yearn to do things you have never thought of me wanting to do

``Nora Brill~~T```

2006-03-19T16:47:00.000-08:00

I truly loved the play i saw on Fri it was sooo good for a play that i hardly understood but with most things you get the jiff of what is happening when you know the body language and other things oh and when you have subtitles hehe. it was really good and i really like the lead female Nora i forgot her name in real life. I was reading the Sunday Mail and they had a review about it and the guy sounded like he was trying so hard to sound really cool coz he mentioned Tarantino and Isben but you can't ever relate things with their work coz its never going to be the exact same.

heheh i slept at Emz on Sat and it was dandy i went to work to pick her up heh and she ended up finishing later so i just sat around while Adam talked to me which i didn't really care about coz i was bored. Why is it that people always have to double check that you no longer work there when you have obviously been taken off the list and you are never around? I don't get it. Finally emzzie finished and i got a caramel thickshake which was oh so yummo!!! My new fave thing now then we went to herz and she watched terminator 2 and i read it was good. Then Mandy came over and we took photos, laughed and fell asleep, was cold and drooling. The next morning Mandy had to leave for work but we thought it was like 9.30 when she tells us it's half past eleven we really were tired!!! When i got to the City i went to buy a Hazelnut Bubble T which was oh so delicious i am in love with them.

FYI i am also loving Strawberry Thickshakes from Maccaz. This morning i went and got a strawberrry thickshake with Ice Cream added and it was oh so divine if the bus driver told me to throw it out i would have just gotten off! The girl put a huge HUGE amount of ice cream in there it beats wendy's hands down. mwah ppl i love you all!!! mwah mwah

Bien Fin de Semana!

2006-03-16T20:38:00.003-08:00

Weekend is here and yay i finally have plans for a friday night! Tonight i will be seen a play with Marcus and it's all in German should be good! Tomorrow sleeping at a great mates house then sunday studying and sleeping at night...i have to have a study night! Mwah children behave and have fun!!!! Love you lots dolls!

...i'm off to see the wizard the wonderfull wizard of oz...actually i'm to enjoy a nice bubbly tea mwah yummo : )

Meringue?

2006-03-14T20:50:00.000-08:00

Urrgghh i hate that sound....

This girl in the library was chewing chewy and it was disgusting! I was trying to do my homework and at first you don't care but after awhile it got to me! The way she was chewing was like a freaken cow eating grass you know that sound thats just like shut your mouth and chew no one wants to hear you let alone be able to taste it. Ewwww i had to leave it was too much too gross and way too disgusting!

I just had spanish and for the first time i think my teacher actually realised by what i meant of "no i don't know spanish extremely well" today becuase he would ask me to be the role model and i'd be all like "what" look. I can't help it. Then he asked to do a spanish dance that i didn't know and his like "for shame" i couldn't find but find that quite funny. I guess i know spanish but when we were riting our words i really hopeless at spelling...so yes for shame. heheh

Oh i saw the O.c last night and it was cranking! Me love O.c Me love O.c loonnng time hehheh I'm wondering who Taylor is going to crunch on next and i'm hoping she gets with "Chilli" he would be oh so proud : ) I reckon somehow they'll meet and she'll hate him then love him! Ahh i will say. Yeah i reckon they should so hook up but somehow this love triangle might go on for a bit longer.

I worked yesterday and it was weird coz even though it's not like it's been forever that i haven't worked i always feel reborn to the idea of doing coffees. I mean its weird if i'm on coffees for more than an hour non stop i'm fabulous at them i am a true pro but when i do them for the first time i suck and it's annoying when I have Katia or Nicole or even the Boss looking behind me coz its itimidating but they help. I guess the fact i'm scared isn't good. Lets see i think i sold more than ten pies and pasties coz they had to keep putting them in the microwave coz we sold out by lunch time and baguettes were selling really well which i'm happy with coz i made them! Yay for me!

Okay mwah ppl i gotta go to my tutorial soon that finishes at seven! can you believe this schedule of mine on wed? 10am-7pm how i do love to tell it Mwah

Sailor....

2006-03-09T21:06:00.000-08:00

she will never

turn her back on

a friend...

she is always

there to defend,

she is the one

whom we depend

she is the one

named....

Sailor Moon!

- would it be weird if i said that this was like the best couple on animation tv ever??? Cos they are you know they are!!!!!!!!!

Long Wkn plans????

2006-03-09T20:54:00.000-08:00

I don't really have any besides working tomorrow, maybe going out don't know yet gotta chat with vicks, movies on sun and studying on mon. Oh *gasp* how rivetting? heheh I'm happy coz i feel like even though it's been a long day it's been a good day. I read book this morning had my spanish lesson and learnt new and exciting words and things about euro and peso which is always handy and yeah. I'm going to do more work then go home and watch the biggest loser to see who isn't the biggest loser..losers hehe.

Oh my gosh for the last few days i've been really really having an urge to watch Sailormoon i'm not sure why but i would love to buy those seasons on dvd i remember when i was a child i use to watch it and pretend i was Mars coz she was so pretty and had long dark hair. Yeah it was cute to be a child of 13.

Okay i better go now mwah and i hope you all enjoy your wkn unplanned or planned Mwah

Hello ello

2006-03-08T18:04:00.000-08:00

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

Just riting to say i shouldn't be riting on here and that i am now going to try and go read oh i don't know 3 CHAPTERS!!!!!!!!!!! of a book before tutorial next week. Believe me they are thick hard and very confusing. I will try i have to.

Lets see done some of my spanish...some of my accounting....need to start micro....????......?????

I know there is a lot more i just can't remember which is going to affect my exam. Today in lecture i was thinking about why the hell i started getting involved with uni? I mean it's completely hard and terrribly confusing yet i am not doing anythin about it which is my own fault yet i am still here typing. do you know see my predigement?. we had tutorial for micro last night and i swear i have the worst helper she's not even a teacher and when she explained things it was worse becuz i understood the second year student more than i did that woman's ramblings. Oh dear i need to go read wait FOUR CHAPTERS!!!! I can't belive this does he think we're magnificent readers? Well thats about it really i don't think that i mind that i have not gone out lately i think it's coz i've been appreciating every 'me' moment coz i'm either studying or watching tv which is never productive so that is goin to have to be my oppt cost. Poor thing i will still religiously watch The O.C and Prison Break but besides that it will all be sacrificed i should make a graph so it can help me bloody understand stupid micro. Roland says it's easier than Maecro even tho it's exxxtremmely hard so plz plz someone shoot me. I think the only reason i don't want to drop out is coz then i would hate myself so i wna toughen it out i mean it's only for like another ten months give or take......cry me a river.....cry me a river heheheheh

P.S oh yeah taylor is so crunching on seth and so i hope that summer so like kicks her in the shins heheheh

Bitch!

2006-03-05T16:26:00.000-08:00

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces

Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression

Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world
Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday

Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me

Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
enlarged in your world
Mad world

throw it away!!!

2006-03-05T16:18:00.000-08:00

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

Yeah i'm just throwing my time away coz i can and cuz i wanna fail so much hehehhe okay i really better go.........listen to pandora, i love that music station oh Rhianna, Jason Mraz all on one station heheh mwah peeps

She works hard for the money, so hard for the money? why is it in my head i don't know but it is oh so catchy i love it i love it...

Oh have y'all been watchin the O.C heheh i love Summers lines who comes up with that stuff...Taylor Trash heheheh classic and her outfits are tooo die for yeah Marissa get with Johnnie so then Ryan can actually have a life but we know how this will end if Marissa does get with Johnnie his girlfriend will so cold shoulder her the guys won't like her and she'll be outcasted until her and Ryan move on with Ryan finding a new girlfriend Marissa getting jealous and blah blah blah i think i'm loving Summer and Seths captions they should so spin off mwah seriously ten well actually seriously gotta go low heehehe can you tell my desperation? - By the way i'm just guessing so i hope i'm rite!

She works hard for the money...

2006-03-05T16:16:00.000-08:00

she works hard for the money so you better treat her right!, oh so hard for the money....

Living la vida noche

2006-03-05T15:42:00.000-08:00

heheheheh

Meh weekend was ite i wish i had done more but going out with Katia was fun. We went to the Casino coz we've been planning it in ages and since nothing else was happenin i thought this is the perfect time. We took a cab there and it cost the same as if i was going to maccas for a morning open so it wasn't bad. We went in and i was glad i was asked for id coz i could finally present it yay...we went upstairs played pokies...drunk...played pokies...drunk the usual. I found that i don't like the pokies coz i didn't win anything i think i spent like 5 dollars or more which i don't mind coz i lost it as spose to if i had won anything i would have bet more. No one was lucky xcpt for Alex who did win but then spent the money ...idiot! hehehe The drinks i had were just barcadis and a strawberry daiquiri which was pretty dull coz it was sour and the guy that served us was rude and didn't put a cute strawberry on the side..jerk. It was good coz i got to see inside the casino but i don't know if we went everywhere coz if we did it was kinda small from my point of view oh we also went across to the pub then we went home in a cab and it was even cheaper!!!! I'd rather do that next time i can't belive how much it was...yes.

Well i'm not spose to be in here i'm actually spose to be finishing my first chapter of accounting which is extremely boring and very draggy it goes on and on about the same thing that i don't understand stupid thing. I have my first tutorial today and i think workshop i hope i don't turn up for nothing in that one oh well that's alright i can read some more. Lets see i finished the first chapter of micro and International Cont. On to second chapter of micro but still on first chapter of Accounting and nothing of spanish-bad habit starting already. Oh i'm spose to be buying books today but forgot my card which isn't good coz i need it for my last lesson the card thing so damn i might have to go home again!

Hemma quit my spanish class coz it's too easy which is true i was reading the book at home in spanish!!...so i came to the conclusion that i can read in spanish my mom didn't believe this until i started reading out loud and then she asked if i could rite and i replyed "NNoooo" shamelessy coz i was like damn she got me there heheheh I'm sticking with the starters class but they did ask if i wanted to move and i said no so hopefully i made the rite move coz this was my only oppt for moving out. Huh what else oh and deborah mite move aswell but i hope not i want to have ppl i can talk to and ask for help and they can. Some of the guys know but they're real snobs! Bigger than the girls can you imagine this? I think my teacher is really necking on Sam i swear she is she's like "oh muchos ombres en la classe....?" (imagine her eyes sparkling) yeah thats what she was like. And she keeps asking the boys questions and stuff i can't wait to see if she has a relat with one it'd be funny i'm betting.....biv or is it viv i don't know or even sam heheh no she wouldn't but it's funny.

Okay loverz i have to go now and mwah and ciao

Oh my gosh Oh my gosh

2006-03-01T18:44:00.000-08:00

DAMN DAMN DAMN oh my gosh oh my gosh..........

I didn't turn up for my lecture yesterday afternoon so i have no idea what was discussed!!!!!

Oh my gosh oh my gosh fuck fuck i'm sorry but this isn't good fuck i'm already falling behind fuck!

fostering Conns

2006-02-28T20:54:00.000-08:00

YAY i got two yeah two new study buddies today!!!!!!!!! Both are in my Spanish class which believe it or not i am going to have trouble in due to the stupid grammer and formal sayings but emma it is easy as you so should have chosen it! Anywho they are Jemma (Hemma) and Roland. Roland is 20 and payed out the fact i cherish Hello Kitty becuz i was promoting him or her with my wardrobe today. Not a very good impress on her count. Jemma is nice and hey she knows more of the Spanish than i do well i think she does.... She didn't like the fact the class was easy and yet that is why i loved it! I hope she doesn't always complain i want to be her friend. Roland is a sweety just doesn't know how to not knock pplz fav things. She is going to also be my study partner not only for Spanish well i'll be her study helper but she will also be helping me with my Business Contexts and Accouting and Economic lessons. YAY! I haven't seen Chandra in ages and i think i lost my homework sheet. nO BULL i really need to find him ASAP.

Oh my gosh did i have like the best run in today or what?... KELLY from year 1 was here at Uni and she is studying teaching second year which is weird coz i swear she was younger than me and she thought we were the same age but apparently well she is older than me? how can that be? heheh it rhymed! Well she was a cutie and i hope i ran into her againg talking about old mates Becki and i are spose to be meeting today..OOPS i can't help it i'm a bit busy. But yeah twas a good day of free patties, fairy floss, lollies, directions and Popcorn! Aghhh it was good!

Oh i also so Stacey Matt. she looks the same i didn't want to call to her seeing as we weren't close but it's nice to know she comes here. Tada ppl mwah loverz keep reading!

Early arrival

2006-02-26T23:21:00.000-08:00

Oh my gosh i came to uni at 11:45 for nothing coz my lessons didn't start til 4? Can you believe that i could have been working my little booty off at work instead of wandering and eating! Stupid computers!!!! On the upside i have a study partner! YAY yes yes it is Chandra and as the gang left for home and i was walking to my class i saw him and guess what?...we have the exact same schedule! How coicidental! The only difference being i have spanish of course but it's really good coz he already helped me with my first assignment (can you believe that??) by finding a book i need to read well buy but i'v borrowed it til the second hand shop opens up. Others are selling it for $50 bucks so i'm thinking of ringing them to find out more. Yay i'm so excited coz i have someone that will be able to help me in my classes now yay ...thank you lord! Mwah Ciao loverz mwah mwah mwah

Bucket Plzzzzzzzzzz

2006-02-22T23:02:00.000-08:00

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

Dizzy sooo dizzy!!!..........

2006-02-22T22:54:00.000-08:00

I think i'm gonna throw up!!! I feel really sick, hot and sweaty and my stomach is really painful!! I'm gonna puke,i'm gonna chuck oh dear lord don't let me faint!!! I REALLY REALLY AM GONNA THROW UP IN THIS LIBRARY!

I feel really bad all i had was a banana thickshake that i refilled halfway and put huge chunks of ice cream in and a banana cake after work walking home and now i'm gonna chuck and i don't know why! Its hurting to read and i feel hot and have a headache i aint feeling well and i have to walk home but if i do i mite faint! OH dear hel;p!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Unitoone

2006-02-21T20:04:00.000-08:00

Argh uni was soo darn boring today the day i really needed to be there i left coz i had to work so i could get hard ass cash rather than nothing coz today when i was at uni i found out i have to pay hundreds of dollars on books that i'll only read once ppl once! How disgraceful where am i going to find all that cash i mean not from my ass obviously. Also i have to pay student services and hecs yada yada etc.....

hey that was yesterday i'm at uni now and yay my photo was taken for id and it's way crap i saw it it's shit. I'm working today, tomorrow and sat which is really good coz i need all the money i can get coz i won't have any left over soon. I really will be in debt! Yay my scholarship ppl rang and said i have a meeting tues hopefully that goes well but i don't think it will. She rang yesterday during my o week lecture and she was quite abrupt, i asked her a question and she snapped weird lady. I'm scared coz i have no idea what to say about where i want to be after uni what i want to achive while at uni and why i'm doing the course i am in. Man they're gonna really search! Well i need to get going oh by the way i have my id card to go out finally i got it in the mail yesterday and it looks better than my student id yay! But i can't go out coz i don't hav a place to sleep afterwards and really i think i'm tired but it've been fun oh'well you can't win everyting! Mwah loverz

Excuse Me...Excuse Me?!?

2006-02-19T20:40:00.000-08:00

Skyshow was AWesOM!! heheh i loved it i loved the music, the wine i mean the milk heheheh. NO it was really groovy i had loads of fun with Stacey, Emma and guess who else i saw..MEL! hehe it has been so long since i saw that chicky and the first thing she did when she saw me was hump me yes it was freaking awesome!

i caught up with Stacey and Mel at first and went into the stage area where i kept getting squashed by bloody losers trying to go past that in the end Stace and i started to link arms so noone would go past. As you can imagine ppl didn't like it especially the kid that wasn't with Daniel hahah stuppid child. Rogue Traders rocked it was soooo cool me and stacey kept shaking our booty non stop through out there performance and i realised i didn't really see them just move to the music heh. We later on tried to find emz coz she came after work so we had a little trouble trying to find her but in the end we did and just in the knick of time too coz the fireworks were gna start. We found a really good viewing area and it was the most terrific show ever Stacey and I kept singing to every song that came on really loudly so the ppl infront weren't happy so wee started to squeal and scream and they didn't like that either but you can't do much coz hey everyones happy unless your some lunatic driving ppl off the footpaths...horrible man he is! Okay chickies i gotta get out of ere but it was a great Sat-Sun so ciao and i hope we can catch up this wkn again! Mwah loverz

Skymo?

2006-02-16T23:19:00.000-08:00

hahah okay i'm not sure why that came out but yeah i couldn't help but laugh.

ewww the gross things about being in a library is that everyone around you is well eeky if you know what i mean i will leave it at that before someone reads it.

Work is getting sooo boring and i'm kinda glad i'll only work oh i dunno lets see ONCE A WEEK when i start uni yeah thats rite thats all the time i have how crappy i know! Oh Amyz back and i worked with her yesterday and she is sooo adorable coz we won't see eachother much when we do our studies she comes up to me and gives me a huggggggggeee hug before she left...what a cutie! I couldn't stop laughing coz i made her place all my cokes back where they went while i did other stuff i felt bad but it was funny to me.

Well i have to start going now and i really can't belive the skyshow is on tomorrow coz hello i thought it was next week...i am never believing nicole ever again!! I'm not sure if i really wanna go or not i mean i want to but no i don't maybe coz i'm wayyyyyyy tired huh well thats it really oh and by the way it's mochas from Hudsons not Glorias but mum and i are buying some from there tonite to try them...mmmmmmm delichhh. Ciao loverz and keep the peace hehehe

P.S i got the photos from the hotel and zoo and they are hot well i am heheh no they're really good i love them!!!!!!!!

Go Baby Go Go

2006-02-15T16:23:00.000-08:00

Argh bloody Jason Mraz's You and I Both won't bloody leave my head!!! Coz you and i Both loved what you and i spoke of of of .....words numbers numbered words .....argh

So i did the most terrific thing today and i can't wait until i get it. I could tell you but i won't anther thing is that i am somehow very cool and can't wait til Uni am soo excited and i just can't hide it. I got my uni starter pack informing me of all my responsibilities for when going there and the clubs and stuff and i can't wait for the fair oh it shall be fun. I've already made plans with Becky to join a kickboxing class if it doesn't clash eitherwise i'll join pilates or the gym i wanna be able to take advantage of my benefits while being at uni. The downside is that i realised i'm already broke before i even started uni so no going out anywhere for me oh i don't know for maybe 3months as it it'll take this long to get myself on track and coz i won't work i will have zilch to zero money. Oh the tragedy stupid money it doesn't ever make you happy just in debt! It's so exciting though money i can handle it's the whole living thing i can't but i have to sacrifice my beautiful wardrobe and needs now which is alrite coz i won't have time to go out coz of uni anyway so yay upside. heheh i better be off my little darlings don't fret.

Wohhoo yesterday i bought the second season of SCRUBS and may i say it is hilarious and i can't wait to watch the rest of the 20 eps i have not yet viewed heheh

Addicted: (besides you and i both) Gloria Jeans Iced Mocha Chillers or the Iced Coffees i don't know what it was but it was good and i want more ppl more!!!!!!!!!!!

mE NO liKE yOU

2006-02-14T16:24:00.000-08:00

U HAPPY I HAVE UNI EVERYFRIKIN DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! SOB SOB I HATE YOUR PREDICTIONS!!

Kind Gesture #2

2006-02-13T15:52:00.000-08:00

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

The first kind gestures are always going to belong to mother becuz she is the best person in the whole entire world that would devote her entire self to somebody else before putting her own needs infronts of others which is why i love and look up to her soooo much yet it's always hard to feel these way i do. The second kind gesture happened this morning as i was awaiting the bus at my bus stop and all of a sudden i thought something that i couldn't belive would actually happened. I thought it'd be funny if one of my customers stopped and asked if i wanted a drive to work and thats exactly what occured!!!! No jokes this regular pulls over his wife slowly jumps out coz lets say they've lived their lives so they aint got to rush. She comes over to me and i was soo surprised i thought she was catching my bus when she asks if i'm going to be needing a lift to work becuz they'd be more than happy to give me a ride......tears ppl tears. If i was the sort of person that cried at kind gestures i wouldve instead i smiled for the entire time and just thought how kind ppl truly are in the world!!!! I loved it and it just made my eeeennnnnnnnnntire day i can't belive how truly swwwweeeeeeeeettttt ppl are. Oh actually i do becuz i have these other regulars and the lady is really brain zappped and the husband just looks after her even though she can't speak or move much.....sob sob this is soooo adorable and everytime they come in i just think about how love is truly out there and that one day i would like to have this bond with my partner one day where even though we're both either a bourden on eachother we would still look after one another becuz that's how much we love eachother and respect eachother to be this faithful through sickness and health after all. I know it's a terrible thing to try and expect becuz i don't expect my partner to be willing to look after me if i was cripple but it would be wonderful to know that if he was or i was we would both rather live together crippled than destroy our lives becoz we can no longer do. Oh love is a magical thing and everytime this couple come in i just can't help but love them especially the husband i mean what commitment that right there is what i call a man. Oh

Was it you who spoke the words????

2006-02-13T15:40:00.000-08:00

Could i resist his charm? Could i resist his voice?

Was it you who spoke the words
That things would happen but not to me
All things are gonna happen naturally
Oh, taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing

Oh, but at often times, those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns tonight
Oh, until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
others only read of the love
Oh, the love that I love
Love-ah-love-ah

See, I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words than I had ever heard
And I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
oOh love, love, you and I, you and I
Not so little, you and I anymore
Mmm hmm
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving
Is the glory of a boy

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now
well then im almost finally out of, finally ou-ou-out of
Finally de de de de de de de, well I'm almost finally, finally
Well, I am free, oh I'm free

And it's okay
If you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephones
Well, they're working in both ways
But if I never, ever hear it ring
If nothing else
I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else
And that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well, then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally de de de de de de de de
Well I'm almost finally
Finally out of words
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