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I am suppose to be doing typing work but this is helping me type also. I have realised i mite not get into my uni prefrence as i am getting bad grades! Damn those teachers and their fair grading! Well i have been really getting tired lately but HEY I JUST REALISED i am going to paste some thoughts i had during my last holidays. Now remember i was bored and this is all i wrote.......

December 28 2004Dude I was jst readin the other blogs and man do I bore the pants of myself! I speak of love as if nothin else matter but lately I’ve started to think hey me not ready. Maybe I feel ready but I am not ready to fall into some relationship where all I want is sex and pressies! I know it’s way to early for me to be thinking of these things but they have bin on my mind like for ever and now it’s like I don’t care y because I’m fed up of feeling hot and not releasing that in any way that could please me? So I have become this weird gal of 17 yrs old acting and feeling like a women going through menopause! The doctor told me that I have low blood pressure isn’t that great I thought my blood pressure would be over the roof but apparently not well I’m gona say ciao now gd day.

December 18, 2004
I just got to thinkn and came to a not so true but yet believable revelation of love. I want love and I believe in love but how many times can you actually say u’v truly been in love? I came to my conclusion that a person can only experience “true love” twice and no more unless they’re extremely lucky why. Well if love isn’t the easiest thing to find how do u know if u are infact in love with the one whom you are with is it because u say it make it or show it? Seeing as I have not yet found this love that overwhelms my everybeing and soul how can I judge it? Easily I look at my friends and family for inspiration on this topic and yes I have found that some have felt it while others still struggling to come to terms to whether or not it does in fact exist!
! I hav to go put my uniform to dry so I’ll b back………….I don’t wannna got me on my knees I can’t get no sleep. Sorry not I love it!!!!

i'll paste the rest later mwah***