Geez everything is startin to look and feel and taste the bloody same until i'm outside in the nice cool breeze and the sun is blinding my eyes i wish i could just live in the sunlight forever.

I feel like i don't want to rite anything coz i don't want to reck anything once you've said something or written someting down or acknowledged something it goes all down hill coz you know its happening and you think that hey can i stop it and you find out that yeah you stop it wreck it and fuck it up therefore hate yourself forever noticing something so meaningless!

blah blah blah if i was given the option to talk about my life and how unsemi-shit it is i think i wouldn't do it coz i know someone wants to hear it or would i do coz they do and i know they'll listen. I'd like that no one has to care about what i mean half the time but its nice when someone can jsut freaken listen to you moan and when they can't its suchhhh a major annoyance coz you know you basically do it for them all the time even if its not realised. Not talking bout anything specific coz i never do i'm a half is awesome half is crappy and i just want to be funking alone kind of girl. But i guess everyone is like that except no one really knows coz noone wants to really hear someone complain but tell me how do you know when someone is complaining or really having a major difficult prob????? Thats why i hate ppl that funking make up buulllshit that has never taken place or just take all the attention coz it will seem that you dont do that then obviously you have no problem and that you are all dandy when duh you are all but dandy! But i don't know thats just me the boy who cried wolf got what he deserved

bye and don't think that i'm riting this becuz i want ppl to think about my life and who the hell i really am coz i know who i am and thats all that matters its just that things need to be brought out on to pages or words i prefer somewheere where no one really goes to know me.