New years

so 2006 hasn't treated me any better or worse than other years but i must say i know more what i can stand, how, when and by who.

I don't mean that its all been too bad man i got the gorgeouest little nephew out of it and i couldn't wish for anything better but still like every year something is missing but i never know what. Maybe its stability or knowing that something will last for eternity. Family for one i can count on no matter how harsh or horrible i mite get family will always stick by my side and this year has opened my eyes to how much.

Friendships new or old were tested some won others have just baarely passed but either way their still going on and i sometimes ask myself why. i jump over backwards for friends but then to me what happens i get screwed over in some really gay ass way and that totally shits me off i'm nearly twenty and what i'm i going to feel??????? same as every year?

My resolutions completed, or not are to get a new job, new way of thinking of life, be more positive, actually listen to instructions and stick to my guns by speaking out if i want something or not.

I hate those sidewalkers who listen to others yet i have always been one......y don't ask.

I love my life with my family and i wouldn't change it. The other part is just confusing.

Nikolas is a blessing in disguise if i never spoke to anyone from school again i don't know how i'd feel but i'd know i'd have a family who love me very much so it wouldn't matter.

New years celebrations have finished and instead of enjoying myself i'm writing in here does that mean anything i'll let you decide.

Enjoy mucho your new leases on life this year and don't stop yourself from wanting to be different or yourself love every minute and know that no matter who you may be love willl always surround you somehow. spiritually,physically or mentally

katia had a baby boy Nikolas David!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so sexxxxxxxxxxyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

It better be back!!!!!!!!!!!

Does anyone ever really grow up???

The answer Nope they just get older.

Now i'm sure its easy to think someone has grown up becuz they're like 80 but they never even changed from how they were. Well by the way they act. I have noticed how no matter how old someone is when they come into my work or when i see them when i'm out they always act like they did when they were in highschool which is a dead give a way of how they use to be or how they wanted to be. And if this is the case i feel seriously in doubt about my ability to cope with what we'll be coming my way the more i get older. I'm saying this becuz if you look at someone more mature than you yeah they look older and yeah they've had life experience but give them a present out of the blue of say something that can take their breath away and they willl ultimately act the same, like a little kid inside has just burst out. It can either be joyus, hysteria, madness or darkened depression. Even when they say things its still in a way of juvenille behaviour i don't know maybe i have over studyed the people i meet and the way in which they act and talk but mind you i'm not saying this is a bad thing i'm just making an observation about no matter how old you get you will simply always be that girl that had the hugest crush on her p.e teacher or the nerd that tried to come up with some "awesome" idea to be the jock. And no matter how much you try to run away from being who you were you won't ever really run away you'll just understand yourself more.