New years

so 2006 hasn't treated me any better or worse than other years but i must say i know more what i can stand, how, when and by who.

I don't mean that its all been too bad man i got the gorgeouest little nephew out of it and i couldn't wish for anything better but still like every year something is missing but i never know what. Maybe its stability or knowing that something will last for eternity. Family for one i can count on no matter how harsh or horrible i mite get family will always stick by my side and this year has opened my eyes to how much.

Friendships new or old were tested some won others have just baarely passed but either way their still going on and i sometimes ask myself why. i jump over backwards for friends but then to me what happens i get screwed over in some really gay ass way and that totally shits me off i'm nearly twenty and what i'm i going to feel??????? same as every year?

My resolutions completed, or not are to get a new job, new way of thinking of life, be more positive, actually listen to instructions and stick to my guns by speaking out if i want something or not.

I hate those sidewalkers who listen to others yet i have always been one......y don't ask.

I love my life with my family and i wouldn't change it. The other part is just confusing.

Nikolas is a blessing in disguise if i never spoke to anyone from school again i don't know how i'd feel but i'd know i'd have a family who love me very much so it wouldn't matter.

New years celebrations have finished and instead of enjoying myself i'm writing in here does that mean anything i'll let you decide.

Enjoy mucho your new leases on life this year and don't stop yourself from wanting to be different or yourself love every minute and know that no matter who you may be love willl always surround you somehow. spiritually,physically or mentally