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i do i have drunk a 1.25L bottle of water which i have been drinking since this morning so it is now warm and gross. ewwwwwww

watched The O.C two last night we get it twice a week yes!! i can't wait for the next season! so i was watchin it and i can't believe summer would like dump cowen cos of he dad wow her priorities are way out of control!! i hav to say though if ya dad said don't see that boy wouldn't that make you want to see him even more. i don't hav a dad so i don't know bt if my mom said don't see that boy ofcourse i would why the hell not it's my choice!!!

there is dude in out school and he sometimes hangs around us well me mates neway i try to be nice to him but his a real DICK! yes bigger than dale heheh. ne how he like says he'll kill everyone day and some of those people are my friends so i don't really fancy his death poems towards them! had orientation last night it was dead ass boring nothing good really happen except i kept makin mistakes when i'd go to sign somethin i'd rite the date instead> i know silly!!

apparently marcus has been talkin to my fav blog gal she's cool she looks like my friend and funny enough sometimes rites stuff that sounds like her too. her name my friend is called Estrella and i saw her before she was lookin hot but she was frezzin her arse of teach her to wear shorts in this weather but it was kinda hot in the morning oh'well who cares. i might go to schoolies this wkn bt i'm thinkn i mite pull out ok it sounds like my teacher is humpin the library aisles they keep sqeakin it's stop it went slow then fast now chairs are being thrown hmmmm what is he up to i soo do not want to go see.

i was gna like buy like this purse like from JR"S like it's brown and like heheh i hate people that do that it's like don't they know anyother word that like like. i am now being serious this is definately my last blog for the year coz school finished today for us year 11's isn't it great not! that means i hav to go over to my families house and spend holz with them!!!! same thing every year except now i hav a job which is far away bt my friends work there arrghhh it's so annoying trying to rite something and things just keep getting into my head of what to rite but i hav to go soon neway coz i need to hand up some work that was due yesterday ohh well luckily she's lenient. i hav nothing else to rite my bloggories <> i have enjoyed my time in this library but now i must leave for good. ciao and thankyou for reading my blog.
i know it's kind of a bore but you went out of ur way to read it.

hopefully next year i'll hav good news and action? *** mwahhhh *** mmwwwaaaaaaahhhhh ***

marcus i saw ya mum today!!

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okay i hav nothin else to rite i have spilled all my thoughts in this stupid blog 2 now and both times this they have been unsaved therfore lost forever for none to read or see for me to never remember those thooughts again i am glad though i damn lost my self concentration due to those dman teachers!! i hate them well for now neway i don't think i'v ever hated someone like i hated that person i don't want to talk of that but maybe one day i will and everything will be fine and i can be who i am in reality rather than being this person every1 thinks they know and understand because they don't and they will never know or understand this is where i think i should stop and start a fresh life i mean how long should i live in this foresaken skin where i cannot bear to be who i really am and that's a caring, friendly, sometimes judgemental not so psycho sexcrazed gal!!!

i have had times where i do feel a bit "fake" and want to tell the truth and say it like it is but i find myself surronded by ppl whom have grown to know and love this girl i am love i don't really believe that i could do so many things and still i would not find love around them why because i don't want to allow it to happen i find these days i just can't wait to go to uni and be myself be who i think I AM? but then i must atleast be a part of this character i play in this world because i don't know any different until i am on my own and begin to ponder of the things i maight have felt if only...........

i should not be sad i should go on top of abuilding and shout out with joy as i do love life but i do wonder if life wants me? i see them on the bus i see them in my head i see them in my sleep but i can not have them for they don't know or want me! but is this just a thought to myself or is this reality could this be what i really believe to be true or is it that i have allowed my self to enjoy the comfort of being alone??????

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can i help it if i miss the fun nights of going trick or treating no idon't think so! ahh the mear pit of it all. bueno ayer? yo went don't get mad i get confused!!

ayer yo went a una interview a maccas no creo que fwe bien>? not i got the job!! wohoo

i am not goin to write in here for around oh i don't know 4 mnths so my blog is gion to get abit lonely yes i know you'll all miss me or i will ne way i realised i hav the best ideas when im not writing in this foresaken blog but i do so love you? i'm sure id like to say other things but this guy dale is seating next to me reading my personal blog how dare he i mean does he think iwrite in here so all the world knows my thoughts and fears well yes maybe i do but noone reads it except for an occasional time when my friends might view it but really to always write in a blog you need time and feelings two things i have at night time what?? i get it don't worry i just like confusing you all!!! i am suppose to be searching for a pressie to give me sister on her b-day but i can't get away from this bloddy comp!! how do you know how i feel if i don't tell you well iknow you don't heehe confusing i know!! damn dale is still reading this IDIOT! im sorry you will never be my friend!! that's nice nah i like dale but only when his normal i guess that a mutual thing ayy dale?

i wanted to change the colour red was making me mad not really but you know? i am not weird im just loopy ok happy is the word. i want to leave you all with something to treasure me by for the rest of this lonesome time that i will not rite in my blog but i hav to go now rite to ya when i can b4 skool finishes neway ciao lovely ppl!!!! mwah dale