Moderate Feelings

So Saturday was s'pose to be a day of celebration you know my bday things and all but for some reason by the end i was weeping like a bubba!!!!

I don't know why i can't really explain the reason but i was hurt and had to let it out. I went into my bedroom and cried all night basically. Which was really stranged becuz i have not done that in a few months. While i was crying i was also thinking about my life. Like always i guess. I thought about how i'm 18 now and yess i am, shut up if you say otherwise. Well i'm eighteen and i started to think about things like i'm i too much of a dreamer? Do i really live in a Fantasy Island? I don't think i do but apparently that is the vibe i give out. I don't mean to act the way i do but that's who i am, I am trying to change some of me. The worst of me but it's hard. It's hard becuase this is all i've known the person i am today has had soo many changes that know i'm stuck like this becuz i don't want to change anther thing even though i know and others know that i need too! It's dandy that i belive in Love and dream about things that only i know of and what to become reality but i think this is why i get to the places and emotions.

These computers are soo freaken old!!! Well i have to go now i'm being kicked out of the women's centre coz i'm taking tooo long Ciao lovers