Chastitiy 108

Ahh for some reason even though i had no uni last week i felt like i had a bit of a hectic week doing who knows what coz me can't remember. What i do remember is that i went to the gym and did a step class it was quite interesting i found out several things about myself

i hate change - moving one side to another with no warning
I dislike older ppl being able to do things i can't - by old i mean seniors
I am totally the most uncoordinated person - i have two left feet, arms and somehow a hip that only like the right
Music does make me moove it and groove it - my moove and groove it i mean my wait nope i don't know but i like it
Once i have learnt something after 20 or so tries i can master it! - Basic step!!! heheh : P

I have also come to conclusion that i am totally addicted to any mvie that may be from India, well actually i have basically been captured by Indian culuture and beliefs ever since i was little seeing as my best friend was Indian. I was always so intrigued about what she did and why she did it. I can say this about the hispanic culture as well i thinks it's coz they're both so intense about what it is that they do in their lives. Its not a matter of doing it its a matter of living it! I don't know meh Anywho i was bored on Sunday so i went to see Water at the Palace Nova cinemaplex and i totally ador it! Oh my gosh i cried like a little whore through out the ending! It was soooo incredibly moving usually i don't cry i want to but tears never fall but in this movie i was like oh the ppooor women! BASTARDS! Chandra assures me this does not happen anymore but at the end it said that widows are still be treated that way even though laws have been passed to prevent it. "it happens so that its one less mouth to feed"! that night i also watched Straight from the heart and oh those are the roles i want to play! - if i was an actress.

Okay so on Sat i ended up meeting Ruolan (i have to learn how to rite it) at 10 and we wnt to Red Square coz we didn't know who was waiting we just lined up first. Oh jeez the bouncer was soo cute dang those blue eyes, if i wasn't such a dweeb when it comes to talking to the opposite sex. This is what i did when he asked a question "yep,heheheh ohh heheh he" and looked away - DWEEB heheh oh i love myself. Well he let us in and dude we were in there for like 5mins alone with no one else besides the staff. We had the whole thing to our selves but then he let other ppl in slowly. and i am so peed of too coz i was spose to get a remixology cd coz i was the first person/ppl in and me didn't get one. The songs are preety darn good but meh i will not forget another night. Anyway the boys in that club are freaking more showi off than the girls, they take the whole stage and just dance with one another!? I'm sure they weren't gay just really arrog. One fell on Ruolan and the other one kicked me...didiots. But it was cool i am in love with Red Square i have to take Emzie there on her bday - remind me woman! Neway 12 came and we met up with Kylie and her buddies. We danced with them for awhile then moved to the other room where we went on those mini stages that you can climb on oh i loved it can't remember what we danced to but i loved that song. Then my absolute fav song at the moment came on SOS i danced my little booty off and then realised Soul or Sol? was looking at me funny so i like twitched then kinda moved slower heheh. Oh well we left coz the boys wanted to go to 108 which i must say is a freaken STRIPPER JOINT and we went in and sat down saw a few naked ladies one of which was called Chastity. She was really friendly and scammed the boys 30 for a table dance for Kylie. It was soo weird i couldn't stop giggling, Chastitiy was a nice girl she came from france appt they lie. She kissed Kylie _ on the cheek ppl at the end - Daniel was abit sore about that he wanted her! Then before we went some other girl started doin one next to us so we stayed coz the boys wanted to peek at her boos and i didn't giggle at all i was just like eeewww mostly coz she was fat and old but also coz it was just ewwww. I mean her body was just that a body it had no significance of beauty or anything it was just like skin and i didn't realise the face i was pulling unitl everyone looked at me and mimicked me, it was pretty rude i hope she didn't see. I mean i don't dislike them girls coz it takes a lot of guts and stupidity to that but ewww to think that was once.....heheheh

Okay thats way long and i am tooo tired to rite about everything so ciao ciao and mwah

Bada ta ta da da ta ta ta

Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
I need to play the game again
All my friends are slipping in the mud,
Well it's a lot like dying, a lot like trying,
All my friends are misunderstood
I don't know which way to point my kiss,
Well it's a lot too clever, it's all too severe,
All my friends are cold in their graves
Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I guess it's okay,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
And I need to play the game again
All my friends are living in denial,
Well you ask no questions, I'll tell no secrets,
All my friends are trying to smile
I don't know which way to point my kiss,
Well it's a lot too clever, it's all too severe,
All my friends died right here
Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I guess it's okay,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
And I need to play the game again
I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I guess it's okay,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
And I need to play the game again
Got an illusion,
I wanted to say,
There's something wrong here
A lot to take,
And I need to play the game again

Autumn fun

With my free time and all i decided that i would join the Flinders gym and after my two sessions i am really enjoying it! Last night was ttb and man nothing is hurting i expected things to be really sore this mornings but nothing is. We worked the thighs mstly as well as the butt! It was easy until we had to "hold, hold, hold it" ahhh man she knows what she is doing. Today i have Steps i'm not sure what that works but it should be fun..

Lets see....hmmm what have i been upto lately? Nothing much i've just been out shopping splurging my money where it aint needed to be splurged. But this month ahead is nothing but birthday after concert. First up i have KYLIE'S 18TH 2mrw nite, yeah thats right after turning 18 i have only clubbed 2, pathetic right? But wait did i say 2mrw nite, okay ladies i am really tired i mean Sat nite we will all be meeting at Red Square and partying her bday nite away! Rolan and i have decided to rock up earlier to get in for free then wait for the others to arrive. Oh its going to be good my first Uni friendship outing...how ador. I can't wait, i'm gonna wear my skinny jeans and some top thats in my wardrobe too bloody many to chose from. I wanna wear my heels but its gonna be raining. Im not sure about the sleeping arrangements but i'm not really hassled after all i can just catch a taxi and it only costs 12bucketybucks. But i think by the time we finish my bus service is gona be running....or i can just ask rolan if i can crash at her place.

In a fortnight i will be seeing Lior, an australian singer with the tunes of mraz....i think? It should be good and then after that i am sooooooooo rapped up about this one END OF FASHION!!!!!!! I so can't wait it should be awesome! hehehe i'm thinking of wearing my poka dot dress to this one, ooooo and my wedges, so ador. Okay okay gna surf the net then go to Steps., mwah ciao ciao

Let me Explain

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!! - I'm gonna try

Its been a hard decision and ive rarely thought about it but it seems to be the best option for me. I am forgoing all studies at Flinders University and not coming back any time soon. This was a rushed decision that became clear straight after my assignment was underway. Believe me i tried and i am not one to give up, i searched, asked for help, tried so many times to attempt the questions but it is obvious that i have no idea what i am doing here besides wasting my money and time. Actually just wasting my money becuz i really do enjoy spending my time at uni learning and socializing with others.

ahh i rote that last week and i still feel really strongly about the decision i have come to make. I am postponing my studies and not returning until i feel that i am ready to study properly and if that is never then don't hate me. I had my first breakdown last week! It was weird everything was find i had bottled things up and then....well that was the last straw and i yelled, i smirked and broke down in tears. It is true i also disrespectd but i had to say what was on my mind and i thought that i would never be forgiven but i didn't have to be everyting i said was true and most of what was said back was true. Ofcourse i could never tell them that. I realised i don't know what i want but i do know this "study right now is not the best thing for ME, it was the best thing at the time but not for me". I just decided to come to Uni becuz well there was nothing else...and still there is nothing else xpt for me wanting to stop and look around my environment to see where i want to be this time next year. I want to do something where i am being trained while working, studying is no fun if no one is pushing you and i don't feel that uni does that for me. Mostly becuz your spose to be independant and all that jazz but i love been told what to do, when, where and exactly how. My last assignment i didn't finish and it was due to my stupidity and laziness, i could've done it, hell i got up early the day it was due just to help my friend yet i couldn't help myself. Ahh life is funny but i'v been feeling better lately and sleeping a whole lot of more! I want to finish the semester of Spanish but i am withdrawing from all other subjects.

This morning i got a message from Chandra and i felt bad replying that i would no longer be around or seeing him coz even tho he was bossy he was a good friend. Ciao Ciao

Falls APART

Y IS THE AIR CONDITIONING ON WHEN IT IS FREEZING COLD OUTSIDE?

- libraries
- cinemas
- shopping centres
- public transport

All these places seem to find it amusing to have the bloody air cond on when it is obviously freezing and raining outside? Y? Y? can anyone explain to me why they do this? It's coz you hate the warm isn't it.....arrrrrrr

Movie Marathon last night slept thru parts of Eight Below, loved The Shaggy Dog then kinda liked Scary Movie 4.....but why was Dr.Phil in it? Emzie drove me to uni this morning or afternoon whichever what a doll! Mwah, she drives soooo cute. Every few seconds there would be a shift and your body just moves forward the goes back to its place heheh it was nice i sure as hell would not be able to drive a manual so i give her kudos for doing so. **. Its autumn yes it is and as lovely as the weather maybe i think i have expressed my frustration and annoyance with the cold. I love everything about Winter and Autumn xpt the cold, i love the rain, the sky full of dark clouds, the lightning, the thunder BUT I LOATH THE COLD! Yeah well thats it mwah and cya round locoz i love y'all peeps.

Jesus died for ME!...and you

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

Wah wah wah i am so in a crazy mood lately. I reckon its coz i've been getting off my booty and getting well needed oxygen into my oh so sweet brain to help me function better. I've been jogging so much and i love it....dude i seriously could jog all day xpt i think my legs my have something to say bout that. I haven't done much for holz xpt work,work,work, oh and did i mention work. Oh yeah plus that other thing called shoppin! heheh

i saw nephew on fri and he is so ador! His starting to get way to grown up for his good. He talks with such a sophisticated proper articulation as if he is an adult. Well he tries, if you heard him speak you'd understand what i'm talking about jigga, heheh. Oh on thurs i saw the very oh so sweet popalitious Laura and she was cajun hot! - see this is such a strange mood for me, i think it's autumn everyting is sooooo goood at the moment, i feel like i'm on top of the world and the only thing that brings me down is my stress levels and insomnia. Newho as i was saying i saw Laura and she wants all us to go out so we should totally make this happen sometime soon. Another thing ahahah she told me bot Estrellz and how her hair had fallen out, into patches!!!! Ahahahah sorry but you don't understand i like her coz she was a good friend to me but somehow feel good to know that well....i could say but i'm not gonna. Appt she tried to bleach her hair 6x - eh you'd think after the 1st time you kinda would stop. Just so she could blonder her hair, which it is just really short,bright blonde and patchy heheheh.

Okay ladies and gentlemen i have to do an assignment which i know won't be done coz i don't know how to do it but as long as i can pretend? that i'm doin it then i don't care. Ah my family say that if i don't pass semester then if i don't want to come back then i shouldn't. In a way i didn't need their permission to stop but i'm glad i know that they feel okay with me just trying as much as i have this semester and i love their support. So believe me if i don't pass it won't be the end of the world for on the contarary it will be the beginning of something more even if it is doing miniscule? work. I don't care as long as i can go to sleep. I haven't had a goodnight sleep since last year. But ofcourse this doesn't mean i aint gonna try. I love studying i enjoy it, lame as it might be i really ador studying and look forward to coming to uni and being educated. So know i'm gona leave you with a farewell. mwah and ciao ciao

P.S HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!!

Chess?

Don't really have much to post besides the fact its HOLIADAYZ!!!!

Yay i can relax.....well actually i can work. I worked last night and realised i have forgotten everything to do with the afternoon shift. Oops i don't think Chris will be happy heheh. Ciao and mwah pplz

Easter Celebrations

Yesterday after International Business lecture which was boring yet interesting Roulan and i went off and had lunch....she had lunch i had an apple. So while we were sitting there waiting for her lunch to be cooked in the microwave Rachel from our Spanish class came and sat with us. It was really weird coz before that i was telling Roulan how i was going to go the Easter Celebration that was being held by the Flinders Christian group coz a) i had nothing else to do for 5 yes 5 Hrs til my next lect and b) there was Hot Cross Buns ppl! Well as i was telling Rachel how i was waiting for that to come around she informed us that she was going to be talking at the celebration and that we should definately go. She also then gave me my c) reason for going...singing church songs!! - fav hobbie of mine. Newho it was really good coz it was the first time that well not really coz i'v had lunch with One and Roulan before but becuz of the language barrier it's sometimes hard to talk about things but for the three of us it was really good, we laughed, we talked, we awwwed and bitched as girls do. It was great. As we were all talking we came to the realisation that none of us had a BF and we were so cute coz we started dissing them and saying how they don't know how to shop or dress, it was like a little slumber party in the cafeteria. So after a while we decided that we are going to have a club for girls who have never had boyfriends.

As we were talking Kylie also from our Spanish class and accounting class came up and started to talking to us. She pulled up a seat and we got to talking bout birthdays, nude dancers on double decker buses, clubbing - we have all decided that wen Kylie turns 18 and Roulan turns 21 we are going club all night and might also do the mini bus club hops and ofcourse more bitching this time about food. I made Kylie buy a Ego Magnum only coz she wouldn't stop saying how much she wanted it so i told her to get it, she still hasn't forgiven me. heheh After 2 and a half hours of talking it was time to head of for the Easter Celebration, i kept promoting the Hot Cross Buns.

When we got there it was fairly empty..round 35 seats and 10 ppl including ourselves. But we weren't that surprised. It got underway and the first song we did I KNEW! It was "My Redeemer Lives" and it was good but they didn't Woo so i was let down but i actually took in the words. After that Rachel finally talked and before that i was trying to calm her down by telling her to imagine everyone naked but then i realised it was a church event so i said underwear which still didn't go down well so i said in there P.Js. Which i think worked coz she didn't seem at all nervous, its funny how you find things out and get lead places when you least expect it. Newho after that other ppl talked and more songs were sang but my "Keep the oil in the Lamp" was never sang....i was crushed! I really needed to pee so of i went to the loo and quickly returned for the long awaited Hot Cross Buns. My gosh they were ohh so good, mmmm i had never had them with butter and warm before so i was loving them. I had four pieces equally 2 BLOODY HOT CROSS BUNS NOT FOUR! - sorry the girls wouldn't let me live it down afterwards. They made it sound like i had eaten four whole ones and Roulan still says 4. Jeez. heheh

After that we went to our darn lecture which confused the heck out of me, but was soon forgiven when it finished! I went to TTP with mother and i bought 3 pairs of new shoes, a fluffy pillow, winter shirts and juice. While i was in Big W i got the sweetest message from Roulan. She has prepared Pork Stir-Fry and has packed a container full for me and one for herself! OH HOW SWEEET! - I love that girl, she so cute heehhe well ciao and i hope you got thru this okay. Mwah

Ps that was the best Thurs i have had at Uni! No ugly boring frees were boredly enjoyed

SAM SUCKS!

We just got our exam results for Spanish back and it is good. Well it's great i got 100% auditiva and 85% escritura. Which is ite when you think about it but eh i'm so cranky. Sam got 100% and 98%! Loser. *poking tongue out* i'm not sure if you know this but i'm a sore loser so i'm quite upset :( well actually not really coz it's my own fault with my comfort of thinking i know how to spell in spanish when that was the MAIN reason i took this class. so i should get off my high horse and actually start learning my spelling accents, stupid accents. Well thats about it after chasing after Sam i'm puffed and staying here til 7 from 8 isn't helping me! I'm tired, cranky and have got micro lect and 2 hr tut. Kill me know! heh mwah loverz

P.S my I.B tutor tried to get me to talk today i chickened out leeaving one to take the lead so know i must do it becuz she knows practically nil to zero english and she went up infront of everyone. For shame me for shame me!

i just realised that last post sounded like a poem, a poet me but a simpleton? Ohh sweeet

Am to Pm

so my assignment deadline was yesterday unless you handed it in this morning at 9am. I had promised myself to do it by Tues last night but i was still unhappy with it and still unhappy with end result. However i would like to say that yes i did it and only for 45% based on my refrencing which i think sucks but i copied my lectures notes so everything should be dandy. "....i'm a twenty something, para para para dada"

So let me give ya a nice little tip - never leave things for the last minute!!!!!! I stayed up last night til 12.30 woke up at 6.00 run around, missed bus, walked, got rained on and showed up few minutes late but it all came well done in the end. I placed my assignment in the shoot and off i went with 15mins to spare. PHEWW

Assassination Of The Weatherman

21C my ass!

In the Eye of the Tiger

Stupid song is stuck in my head! So appaently accounting is really hard? Who would have thought.?/ stupid thing but hey i'm off to anther workshop and tutorial even though i had mine already just to make sure i get it! Ciao

....THIIS IS WRONG.

We Are Scientists

"I got a great idea I'm gonna wait right here I got a great idea I'm gonna wait right here While everything is adding up, up, up Everything is adding up, up, up"

I am totally crunching on these dudes, lead singer mainly. The video clip of this is soo funny especially when they're on the dance floor...those boys know how to crank it. heheh

S-O-S please someone help me. It's not healthy for me to feel this Y-O-U are making this hard? I can't take it see it don't feel right. S-O-S please someone help me, It's not healthy for me to feel this Y-O-U are making this hard?You got me tossing and turning can't sleep at night - Rhianna

Another one of my fav.!!! She's such a QT.

So last night i watched Neonflux and Walk the Line and a bit of In Her Shoes. I like Walk the Line it was good i still love Ray more. I thought Reese Witherspoon was pretty swell!

NeonFlux or whatever its called was reallllly crap! I can't believe that movie was made, it's better to not have made that movie that to have lived once. It was soo stupid things looked like they were put together at the last minute i'm so glad i didn't see it at the movies! Well chockies thats about it. I have to go do my assignment thats due on Tues and homework due tomorrow. Mwah