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Hey just thot i'd rite in here i'm a bit bored and i should be doing my homework but what the heck! i just saw mother she's gone now. Went trick n treatn last nite it was good didn't get that much stuff ppl are getting less halloweeney.

so i'm back where i started last year same mood same person. Damn them why must they be sooo freaking spiteful? Stupid spiteful boy! No more spending day dreaming bout you and your stupid nice eyes.

Yeah so kelly clarkson concert is on soon 5 days to be exact. I cannot wait it shall be the highlight of my november life. Well maybe. I'm gonna go now but i think i mite leave you with my latest fav song by charlotte church it is called "Crazy Chick".

I think I'm gonna need some therapy.
Oh babe I hope you got a Ph.D.
Won't you let me on your leather couch?
I got a lot of needs to talk about.
I think I'm crazy, think I'm stupid,
Must have lost my mind.
Wondering what I'm thinking loving you
`Cause boy if you were mine,
I'd really go insane;
You'd be my favourite thing.
I'd go ballistic, yeah,
You're making me a crazy chick.
You driving me to insanity.
All the things you do,
You make me come unglued.
I just can't help myself,
I need professional help, help.
I need professional help!
You really done it this time,
You know you twisted my mind.
You got me acting like a wacked out chick.
So I won't be responsible,
`Cause I'm really not logical.
No I won't be to blame,
You know I'm really not sane.
I think I'm crazy, think I'm stupid,
Must have lost my mind.
Wondering what I'm thinking loving you
`Cause boy if you were mine,
I'd really go insane;
You'd be my favourite thing.
I'd go ballistic, yeah,
You're making me a crazy chick.
You driving me to insanity.
All the things you do,
You make me come unglued.
I just can't help myself,
I need professional help, help.
Can't get you out of my head,
So let me just confess.
For those kisses, baby,
For your love.
You drive me crazy,
I can't get enough.
I think I'm crazy, think I'm stupid,
Must have lost my mind.
Wondering what I'm thinking loving you
`Cause boy if you were mine,
I'd really go insane;
You'd be my favourite thing.
I'd go ballistic, yeah,
You're making me a crazy chick.
You driving me to insanity.
All the things you do,
You make me come unglued.
I just can't help myself,
I need professional help, help.
You driving me to insanity.
All the things you do,
You make me come unglued.
I just can't help myself,
I need professional help, help
I need professional help!
You driving me to insanity.
All the things you do,
You make me come unglued.
I just can't help myself,
I need professional help, help
I need professional help!
I need help.

Stupid boys!

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And The Beat Goes On

Wow i really really can't wait until i leave! Mum said it's going to be in about a month or two but i wish it was now. I really want to start a new life after all with a new year comes a new beginning!

School was totally boring in a way today but i can't really complain much it was what it was. I started on my women studies, business stud and english so it's going well. I am quite tired i feel like i am just one step from falling on to this keyboard and sleeping. But when i get home i'll be as awake as an owl when the sun goes down. Hell yeah daylight savings is happening this weekend i'm looking forward to that coz i'll be able to look out and still see the sun at seven. Not much to say really i think i used up all my info yesterday.

I was walking to school this morning as you do, and Lauren went passed and asked if i wanted a lift...How sweet nice girl that one! I saw estrella about one week ago did i ever mention that? Well i saw her at the train station and i told her i'd ring her so i have to sometime soon or maybe before i leave. Emma and I walked to work yest at 1.45 and got there at 3pm it was tiring, exciting and sore! So if your not an excercise junkee do not try it! When we got to work we were just huffin and puffin. Due to all the stupid flies that are around at the moment we decided to put our work hats on so we walked from doctors corner to maccas with our hats. Quite groovy i must say.

I don't think i want to leave my friends coz i don't but i do want to leave. If it wasn't this year we would have moved next year anyway, we've been planning to for years but coz of school i really didn't want to. But you know what no more school so no more needing to live there YES! soory to all the friends that feel hurt becuase of this but i want a change.

All Cried Out

[Allure]
All alone on a Sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling
Inside I'm slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you
Don't you know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire
'Cause I'm tired of your lie
All I needed was a simple "Hello"
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry
(I) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
(And you) You leave me so confused
Now I'm all cried out, over you.
[112]
Cryin' over you, yeah
Never wanted to see things your way,
Had to go astray
For why was I such a fool (Why was I such a fool)
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home,
How could I be so wrong?
[Allure]
Leaving me all alone
Don't you know my tears will cause an inferno
Romance of these flames,
Why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected (So sorry baby)
Apology not accepted
At me to the broken hearts you've collected
(I) I gave you all of me (Gave you all of me)
How was I to know,
You would weaken so easily
(I) I don't know what to do (I don't know what to do)
Now I'm all cried out (All cried out)
Over you
(I) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
And you
[112]
You left me so confused
[Allure]
Now I'm all cried out
Now I'm all cried out
Over you
This has got to be one of my old time favourite songs. I just heard it on tv one day when i was 11 and it has been stack in my head ever since. It always plays in my mind when i'm day dreaming.

O Yeah 2

I decided to put the song lyrics on here oh and plus i gotta tell you this okay. You have to turn the lights off and read this YOU only okay no one else can ever find this out coz i just want you and only you to know.....well maybe i shodn't say it but i will here i go...

It's MY bday on tuesday of two Weeks!!! Well my real bday, the actual day i came out of mothers womb! How good is that? Very cool i know.


These are a few things i will be asking for not only christmas but bday:

Dirty Dancing Album and DVD - i love this movie who ever came up with this movie Thank you!

Destiny Child #1s - So hot it's got me Jumpin Jumpin heeh
Arrested Development Season One - Bastards took it from me!
Shorts - I sooo badly need a pair that. Appar it's gonna be a really hot summer!
Black Eyed Peas new album - not too sure i mite buy that one?
Blush - i tried on this really nice blush on it was soo smokin

I'm thinking that is it for now as you can see i have not thought it over very well like my last one that was better. Wow me and that guy that whacky are left now in tafe comp room... freaky. Not. There was some hot dude sitting next to me before but man he really needed to shave whatever pubes were growing of his chin they were grosss. It made him look to old.

O Yeah
I’m a raisin she's a cow
The way she's looking at me now...wow!
When conversation comes my way
I say I go to church to pray
You know almost every day
That's when she walks away
O Yeah?!
So you want to talk about it for a while
O Yeah?!
So you went school to relearn how to smile
O Yeah?!
She said I had a dirty dream, she said come on
O Yeah?
O Yeah!
Smoke to mouth and nod your head
I can’t remember what you said
And your name again?
Constipation verbally
Then I walk away
{Chorus}
Sweet candy
Just give me some sweet candy
You make me feel ooh baby
You think you're all that!
On and on...
{Chorus}

Totally forgot to tell you i got my way freaking expensive glasses today. They are okay but noone would ever freaking guess how stupid i was in spending that much on them reminds me of a certain someone! Man i hate the fact school is nearly over the more i think that assignment is due the more i realise HELLO the year is nearly over and just like that * poof it disappears and so do the regular talks and worries. Bloody hell i can't wait. Nah not really coz it means giving up the things that i love, stopping the things that allow me to be immature and give me the permission to be silly and a girl but mostly i will miss the ones that have totally made me see myself in a totally different light, the ones that have made me learn to cope and keep going even when things are rough, the ones that have given me patience and understanding I will miss them all but no doubt the ones i will miss seeing everyday are the ones that i love to be with, talk to and just sit with. They are my rescuers and they just don't know how or why but they are, and for that i will miss the company and the reassurence. I do love these certain group and will try with all my lazy mite to keep in touch with them. Because once you start to fade away from eachother that is when we will start to forget one another. sob sob

Alrite enough of the soppy stuff i gotta go pee MWAH

O Yeah

Wow i just read my friend Martino's blog and he is one critic! It's cute, i went to see my photos today from formal so that i could print them out and they are all so great. I'm not too sure that i want to buy them but i do that i like the group photos! I also picked up my photos from the photo shop its new and i must say i did not like the service besides the free lollies. The lady wasn't that nice she was kinda harsh but she was prob busy.....my belly is soo sore from all those fantales and Staceys cake. Stacey that was really nice cake. The formal photos came up great and i can't wait to show them to my other friends me and emma already swapped and compared but they were all good. There is this one with my little nephew Ant it is soooo adorable i swear that kid is going to break girls hearts when he grows up. He is the biggest gentlemen when he doesn't throw socks on the floor expecting his mum or i to pick them up like slaves. Brilliant.

I am already behind in school work i can tell, my english is doing not soo good, Tourism i'm on track with, Women Studies struggling, IPP kinda up to date and.....Business Studies upto date sorta. I think i really need to stop slacking off and actuallly doing the work, which means i have to come to school early in the morning tomorrow and do some. Well what i can. Yesterday i was walking around with Sam and Emma and i realised how much i had missed that coz it is way fun even if it is just talking about random stuff like today with Stacey and Emma. It's all good. I have a pretty good idea in my mind about who i'm staying in touch with next year because i love them to death and who i'll be talking to to be nice. I love everybody right at this moment and i hope nothing spoils it.

Aghhhh there is another wait two no three other huge things happening later these weeks that i can't wait for. Let's see first is the Kelly Clarkson concert ofcourse it will be so exciting i can't wait. Marcus, Emma and I are all going and it is going to be quite lovely and dandy! I need to buy something new to wear so i should do it soon coz it's coming up in over one week! YIKES. The other happy thing is Trisha's bday what a lovely girl she invited Emma and I over to her place to celebrate her bday. I can't wait we have to buy her something spectacular and i have to take millions of photos for everything i am doing later on the month so i need a new camera. Trish is so sweet everyone says that me and her are sooo alike but i don't know she's not that sarcastic but she is very expressional which is prob why we are compared. The next day after her bday i gotta wake up early meet up with Marcus and go to the Christmas Pagaent? Is that how it's spelt? Well that shod be awesome as well. We can see Santa right at the end..let's see what is my fav float thing? I think maybe the little Red Riding Hood one and all the fairytale ones. Emma is suppose to be coming as well i hope she doesn't get tooo hammered and say no after Trish's coz it's gonna be sweet as candy. Wow am i writing too much? What could i wear to the Kelly Clarkson concert i don't know was thinking maybe a dress? Gotta go buy one or maybe just go with something simple but nice and girly...i reallly am into dressing up all girly lately i love it. Ummm lets see schoolies is coming up real close it's in a month or so i'm not going but i like how everyone is reallly wanting to go and how excited they are it's sooo cute. I might go maybe Sam said that she might go down in a bus with me i hope she does even for one night it's good. I didn't want to go becuz its my little nephews bday so i didn't want to miss it. I am soo retarded i know but he is growing up to fast and we might be moving at that time as well.

Im trying to find a song that i can't get out of my head on the web but i can't seem to find it i think the guy is aussie maybe. I saw the film that Marcus made it's called "As is" and its soo darn funny i love it. I'm keeping it for ever coz it's so cute it reminds me of how much i love to act. I really wanted to be an actress i think we kind of all wanted to do films when we were young but i reallly do love it. Especially the crying parts i think i'm a really good cryer, i remember when i pretended to cry and Barbie saw me and genuinely belived that i was crying poor thing prob made her really care and then just made her peed off coz i was faken it! I love my nails i can't get over them i really wish that i could keep them i hate work for wanting me to take them off it is sooo not fair our work is so strict but dude it's just maccas. Speaking of work i have it tonight for 2 and half hours how crabby youd think they'd just fire me rather than torture me with small shifts like that ey. Hey i found the song i was looking for it's from End of Fashion and it is called "O Yeah" It in my head. Well loves i better be off this is starting to make me dreary actually i think i mite right another post coz this one is way to big.

Ciao Babes

Regret and never live

I am sorry for wat i put you through i know that i am in the wrong. You didn't deserve that from me but i don't deserve that from you. We are both to diff people that hav gone through diff things...things i can't say but what i can say is that i love you and you are the sweeetest friend that i have ever had, i don't want to loose that but i don't want to be ashamed of what i did. Life is living and even though it's was a bad living i can look back and say i did that and i am not happy about it but i did it. It is never something that i am going to openly brag about and it is not something that happens all the time but for the fact that it did happen i am sorry and that is all i can say.

"no one is ever perfect nor can they ever be perfect. and even if they were the closest thing to perfection well their imperfection is their perfection. it will never make sense to you unless you are the one in the state of perfection, in the monotony, in a situation that cannot be described by words. it's pointless to pick on one's flaws, for don't they know it already? we are all fucking flawed." - Celina

Formal was brilliant it was the most fun a girl could ever have! I must say that it was the most exciting time of my life and for the first time in a few months i actually felt like a little girl all over again. The butterflies, the nerves it was all good and i would love to do it all again the night was extremely glamourous and for everyone out there formal is exactly what you make it and for me it was perfect while it lasted!!!! Mwah

The impact is hitting

One more day little darlings think about it...... one more day!

Be Spontaneous

Hey hons just giving you an update that there are only 2 days until my formal and i still don't have the right shoes, jewls, nails and makeup oh or the bag!!!! Wat will a girl like me do? Rush that's wat i'm gonna do, i've got my toe nail appt tom and my hair appt fri so i'll get my nails done that day after or before not sure yet. I need to pee, everyone was getting on my nerves well these people from school that went to their formal last year and all they can now say is "It's crap, It was Crap" Well you know what it WAS crap for you but hopefully oh i know that it won't be crap for me. Things are what you make of them and i know people didn't turn up last year with a negative persp but they ended having a not sooo great time and that's okay because it was their exp. but please don't try and pretend to yourself that you are helping me in telling me that it's not everything i expect because what i expect is to have a fun time with my friends and be able to look glam or something like it. So thank you for your wise words but formal is something you have to exp yourself and find out truly how it is rather than bagging it just becuasue of what others before have said.

Now i'm sorry i sounded really bitchy and rude but we can only take so much.

I'm in the library and i think it's really bad that i'm in here because i could be doing something more constructive at home, okay sitting on the couch isn't const but it's entertain. We went on school exc today to McLaren Vale it was fun. Emma and I went looking for a bakery but gave up about half way there it was too much of a walk, and i just wanted to go inside not get anything. That's one of my fav acts all you do is go shopp look inside and take it in, if you like someth buy it if not keep walking. It's fun coz you find so many interesting things esp when you take the time to actually look, i went to adelaide and found all these new and interesting stores because i was actually vent into the alleys rather than just the norm. It was fun i want to go back and walk around all over the streets see where they take me. My friend Jessie and I keep meaning to just get on a bus and see where we go. I love things like that mystery journies, if their was only some job that allowed me to do that i would adore it, mostly coz it'd be something diff each day. I did want to be some sort of agent when i was younger prob coz i love mysterious and they go around the world depending in what area you work. Wow this is a huge blog i better be off before i miss my bus. I'd just like to say restricting yourself from anything is only limiting your capacity to accomplish it? Does that make sense oh'well it does to me Ciao beauti ppl i mite post soon or until next week to let you know how formal went!

Hey did you know formal is in 2 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why are people so cruel?

It's becuase they are jealous and horid. I don't understand why they chose our home but it was something that i will never forget, especially since it was soooo scary! I just thank God that my mum and I weren't hurt.

On to lighter terms formal is just four days away!!! It's getting so close to the date, everyone or just me is freaking out. I don't care what other people say it is going to be the most awesome night i can hardly wait.....antisipation is taking over......but the excitement is starting to set. I am wearing a hot pink dress which my aunty was fitting me for on friday, may i say she is one of the most SCARIEST persons when she is trying to concentrate and is in a hurry. I didn't even want to breathe because i thought she might prick me! But i do love her. Work was good Saturday it was fun! Lately i don't talk at work unless it's with someone i love to keep conversing with. Usually because everyone else bores me with stories i don't need to hear. But besides that everyone else there at the moment is quite cool to be around with. I'm so tired i never slept in, in the holidays i kept waking up at 8 - 8.30. the latest i slept in til was 11.00 WOW. Well i might rite something else later but right now i have nothing to really to express to you besides "You are what your actions make you" Is that true?

My Humps - great song!

What you gon’ do with all that junk?

All that junk inside your trunk?

I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,

My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely little lumps. (Check it out)

I drive these scrubbers crazy,

I do it on the daily, They treat me really nicely,

They buy me all these ice-ys. Dolce & Gabbana,

Fendi and then Donna

Karen, they be sharin’

All their money got me wearin’

Fly gearrr but I ain’t askin,

They say they love my ass ‘n,

Se7en Jeans, True Religion,

I say no, but they keep givin’

So I keep on takin’

And no I ain’t fakin’

We can keep on datin’

I keep on demonstrating.

My love, my love, my love, my love

You love my lady lumps,

My hump, my hump, my hump,

My humps they got u,

She’s got me spending.

(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.

She’s got me spendin’. (Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me

What you gon’ do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.

What u gon’ do with all that ass?

All that ass inside them jeans?

I’m a make, make, make, make you scream

Make u scream, make you scream.

Cos of my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely lady lumps. (Check it out)
I met a girl down at the disco.

She said hey, hey, hey yea let’s go.

I could be your baby, you can be my honey

Lets spend time not money.

I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,

Milky, milky cocoa,

Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight.
They say I’m really sexy,

The boys they wanna sex me.

They always standing next to me,

Always dancing next to me,

Tryin’ a feel my hump, hump.

Lookin’ at my lump, lump.

U can look but you can’t touch it,

If u touch it I’ma start some drama,

You don’t want no drama,

No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama

So don’t pull on my hand boy,

You ain’t my man, boy,

I’m just tryn’a dance boy,

And move my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.

My lovely lady lumps x3

In the back and in the front.

My lovin’ got u, She’s got me spendin’.

(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.

She’s got me spendin’.

(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

What you gon’ do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.

What you gon’ do with all that ass?

All that ass inside them jeans?

I’ma make, make, make, make you scream

Make you scream, make you scream.

What you gon do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,

Get you love drunk off this hump.

What you gon’ do wit all that breast?

All that breast inside that shirt?

I’ma make, make, make, make you work

Make you work, work, make you work.

She’s got me spendin’.

Spendin all your money on me and spendin’ time on me

She’s got me spendin’.

Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

Everybody here get it out of control.....

Howdy wow i really i'm getting lazy again, i don't want to write in here that much. Let's see i saw must love dogs last week it was alright, i think i expect to much from them. I'm trying to download music but i don't know how.... yeah i did it, i really hope mother doesn't get in trouble for this cos it's her internet!

Don't you think a girl like me can be touched.... i want to take you home with lalalallalalalllallal

I also went bowling with me chickies, it was quick but fun ey girlies? I can't wait for tonight it's gonna be the best night for the whole holidayz .... no it's not that ewww freakz. I'm sleeping at Staceys house hollaback Stacey ... it's gonna be awesome! I think we're gonna watch movies and dance or whatever well i know that emma and mel are going so i can't wait haven't seen mel in ages! I have to go get my glasses sooon they probably think that i don't want them.. oh well they are like only $300 why wouldn't i want them? I'm again suppose to be doing homework but hey don't be afraid, i know you think i'm a good girl but don't you think a girl like me can be touched? What i really what is for him to do what he wants, how i want to llalalalalallalaal.

So i also visited me friend jessie hadn't seen her in a while, went over to her house and had a few drinks it was quite nice. I liked her little get together coz people were actually dancing at a party!! i know how strange most parties i've been to no one dances just drink ewww. Kidding
Well hadn't seen her in a while but it was fun, we caught up. Get down girl go head get down, do you feel me mamma, do you feel me mamma, i'm on my knees... i love Kanye! Get down girl, know i ain't saying she's a gold digger, get down girl get down oh oh oh oh

People prob think i'm a freeeak coz me dancing to the music.Do you feel me mamma, get down girl go head get....did you see how i tried to post a picture but it didn't work how sad sob sob. It was s'psoe to be kelly Clarkson but now it's just a line. I left my homework sheet at school so i think i'm already behind! Ooooppps. My bestfriend said she use to #$@$ Usher but...I'm meeting my mother soon given me money for me glasses that im s'pose to pay. Wel honz i beta be bouncin before i start to rumble on about more nothings. Oh i forgot i also thought Red Eye was quite stupid it was soooo lame and not at all scary well kinda not really.