The Bootylicious Baby

Hope Maintains the Idiot You'll get further in life with sugar and honey than salt and vinegar. The cloud has to shadow the sun so you can appreciate the light. Ignorance is the path to knowledge!!!!!!!!!!!! If anything excuses just stop you from reaching your goals.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

fostering Conns

YAY i got two yeah two new study buddies today!!!!!!!!! Both are in my Spanish class which believe it or not i am going to have trouble in due to the stupid grammer and formal sayings but emma it is easy as you so should have chosen it! Anywho they are Jemma (Hemma) and Roland. Roland is 20 and payed out the fact i cherish Hello Kitty becuz i was promoting him or her with my wardrobe today. Not a very good impress on her count. Jemma is nice and hey she knows more of the Spanish than i do well i think she does.... She didn't like the fact the class was easy and yet that is why i loved it! I hope she doesn't always complain i want to be her friend. Roland is a sweety just doesn't know how to not knock pplz fav things. She is going to also be my study partner not only for Spanish well i'll be her study helper but she will also be helping me with my Business Contexts and Accouting and Economic lessons. YAY! I haven't seen Chandra in ages and i think i lost my homework sheet. nO BULL i really need to find him ASAP.

Oh my gosh did i have like the best run in today or what?... KELLY from year 1 was here at Uni and she is studying teaching second year which is weird coz i swear she was younger than me and she thought we were the same age but apparently well she is older than me? how can that be? heheh it rhymed! Well she was a cutie and i hope i ran into her againg talking about old mates Becki and i are spose to be meeting today..OOPS i can't help it i'm a bit busy. But yeah twas a good day of free patties, fairy floss, lollies, directions and Popcorn! Aghhh it was good!

Oh i also so Stacey Matt. she looks the same i didn't want to call to her seeing as we weren't close but it's nice to know she comes here. Tada ppl mwah loverz keep reading!

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Early arrival

Oh my gosh i came to uni at 11:45 for nothing coz my lessons didn't start til 4? Can you believe that i could have been working my little booty off at work instead of wandering and eating! Stupid computers!!!! On the upside i have a study partner! YAY yes yes it is Chandra and as the gang left for home and i was walking to my class i saw him and guess what?...we have the exact same schedule! How coicidental! The only difference being i have spanish of course but it's really good coz he already helped me with my first assignment (can you believe that??) by finding a book i need to read well buy but i'v borrowed it til the second hand shop opens up. Others are selling it for $50 bucks so i'm thinking of ringing them to find out more. Yay i'm so excited coz i have someone that will be able to help me in my classes now yay ...thank you lord! Mwah Ciao loverz mwah mwah mwah

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Bucket Plzzzzzzzzzz

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

Dizzy sooo dizzy!!!..........

I think i'm gonna throw up!!! I feel really sick, hot and sweaty and my stomach is really painful!! I'm gonna puke,i'm gonna chuck oh dear lord don't let me faint!!! I REALLY REALLY AM GONNA THROW UP IN THIS LIBRARY!

I feel really bad all i had was a banana thickshake that i refilled halfway and put huge chunks of ice cream in and a banana cake after work walking home and now i'm gonna chuck and i don't know why! Its hurting to read and i feel hot and have a headache i aint feeling well and i have to walk home but if i do i mite faint! OH dear hel;p!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Unitoone

Argh uni was soo darn boring today the day i really needed to be there i left coz i had to work so i could get hard ass cash rather than nothing coz today when i was at uni i found out i have to pay hundreds of dollars on books that i'll only read once ppl once! How disgraceful where am i going to find all that cash i mean not from my ass obviously. Also i have to pay student services and hecs yada yada etc.....

hey that was yesterday i'm at uni now and yay my photo was taken for id and it's way crap i saw it it's shit. I'm working today, tomorrow and sat which is really good coz i need all the money i can get coz i won't have any left over soon. I really will be in debt! Yay my scholarship ppl rang and said i have a meeting tues hopefully that goes well but i don't think it will. She rang yesterday during my o week lecture and she was quite abrupt, i asked her a question and she snapped weird lady. I'm scared coz i have no idea what to say about where i want to be after uni what i want to achive while at uni and why i'm doing the course i am in. Man they're gonna really search! Well i need to get going oh by the way i have my id card to go out finally i got it in the mail yesterday and it looks better than my student id yay! But i can't go out coz i don't hav a place to sleep afterwards and really i think i'm tired but it've been fun oh'well you can't win everyting! Mwah loverz

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Excuse Me...Excuse Me?!?

Skyshow was AWesOM!! heheh i loved it i loved the music, the wine i mean the milk heheheh. NO it was really groovy i had loads of fun with Stacey, Emma and guess who else i saw..MEL! hehe it has been so long since i saw that chicky and the first thing she did when she saw me was hump me yes it was freaking awesome!
i caught up with Stacey and Mel at first and went into the stage area where i kept getting squashed by bloody losers trying to go past that in the end Stace and i started to link arms so noone would go past. As you can imagine ppl didn't like it especially the kid that wasn't with Daniel hahah stuppid child. Rogue Traders rocked it was soooo cool me and stacey kept shaking our booty non stop through out there performance and i realised i didn't really see them just move to the music heh. We later on tried to find emz coz she came after work so we had a little trouble trying to find her but in the end we did and just in the knick of time too coz the fireworks were gna start. We found a really good viewing area and it was the most terrific show ever Stacey and I kept singing to every song that came on really loudly so the ppl infront weren't happy so wee started to squeal and scream and they didn't like that either but you can't do much coz hey everyones happy unless your some lunatic driving ppl off the footpaths...horrible man he is! Okay chickies i gotta get out of ere but it was a great Sat-Sun so ciao and i hope we can catch up this wkn again! Mwah loverz

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Skymo?

hahah okay i'm not sure why that came out but yeah i couldn't help but laugh.

ewww the gross things about being in a library is that everyone around you is well eeky if you know what i mean i will leave it at that before someone reads it.

Work is getting sooo boring and i'm kinda glad i'll only work oh i dunno lets see ONCE A WEEK when i start uni yeah thats rite thats all the time i have how crappy i know! Oh Amyz back and i worked with her yesterday and she is sooo adorable coz we won't see eachother much when we do our studies she comes up to me and gives me a huggggggggeee hug before she left...what a cutie! I couldn't stop laughing coz i made her place all my cokes back where they went while i did other stuff i felt bad but it was funny to me.
Well i have to start going now and i really can't belive the skyshow is on tomorrow coz hello i thought it was next week...i am never believing nicole ever again!! I'm not sure if i really wanna go or not i mean i want to but no i don't maybe coz i'm wayyyyyyy tired huh well thats it really oh and by the way it's mochas from Hudsons not Glorias but mum and i are buying some from there tonite to try them...mmmmmmm delichhh. Ciao loverz and keep the peace hehehe
P.S i got the photos from the hotel and zoo and they are hot well i am heheh no they're really good i love them!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Go Baby Go Go

Argh bloody Jason Mraz's You and I Both won't bloody leave my head!!! Coz you and i Both loved what you and i spoke of of of .....words numbers numbered words .....argh

So i did the most terrific thing today and i can't wait until i get it. I could tell you but i won't anther thing is that i am somehow very cool and can't wait til Uni am soo excited and i just can't hide it. I got my uni starter pack informing me of all my responsibilities for when going there and the clubs and stuff and i can't wait for the fair oh it shall be fun. I've already made plans with Becky to join a kickboxing class if it doesn't clash eitherwise i'll join pilates or the gym i wanna be able to take advantage of my benefits while being at uni. The downside is that i realised i'm already broke before i even started uni so no going out anywhere for me oh i don't know for maybe 3months as it it'll take this long to get myself on track and coz i won't work i will have zilch to zero money. Oh the tragedy stupid money it doesn't ever make you happy just in debt! It's so exciting though money i can handle it's the whole living thing i can't but i have to sacrifice my beautiful wardrobe and needs now which is alrite coz i won't have time to go out coz of uni anyway so yay upside. heheh i better be off my little darlings don't fret.
Wohhoo yesterday i bought the second season of SCRUBS and may i say it is hilarious and i can't wait to watch the rest of the 20 eps i have not yet viewed heheh
Addicted: (besides you and i both) Gloria Jeans Iced Mocha Chillers or the Iced Coffees i don't know what it was but it was good and i want more ppl more!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

mE NO liKE yOU

U HAPPY I HAVE UNI EVERYFRIKIN DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! SOB SOB I HATE YOUR PREDICTIONS!!

Monday, February 13, 2006

Kind Gesture #2

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

The first kind gestures are always going to belong to mother becuz she is the best person in the whole entire world that would devote her entire self to somebody else before putting her own needs infronts of others which is why i love and look up to her soooo much yet it's always hard to feel these way i do. The second kind gesture happened this morning as i was awaiting the bus at my bus stop and all of a sudden i thought something that i couldn't belive would actually happened. I thought it'd be funny if one of my customers stopped and asked if i wanted a drive to work and thats exactly what occured!!!! No jokes this regular pulls over his wife slowly jumps out coz lets say they've lived their lives so they aint got to rush. She comes over to me and i was soo surprised i thought she was catching my bus when she asks if i'm going to be needing a lift to work becuz they'd be more than happy to give me a ride......tears ppl tears. If i was the sort of person that cried at kind gestures i wouldve instead i smiled for the entire time and just thought how kind ppl truly are in the world!!!! I loved it and it just made my eeeennnnnnnnnntire day i can't belive how truly swwwweeeeeeeeettttt ppl are. Oh actually i do becuz i have these other regulars and the lady is really brain zappped and the husband just looks after her even though she can't speak or move much.....sob sob this is soooo adorable and everytime they come in i just think about how love is truly out there and that one day i would like to have this bond with my partner one day where even though we're both either a bourden on eachother we would still look after one another becuz that's how much we love eachother and respect eachother to be this faithful through sickness and health after all. I know it's a terrible thing to try and expect becuz i don't expect my partner to be willing to look after me if i was cripple but it would be wonderful to know that if he was or i was we would both rather live together crippled than destroy our lives becoz we can no longer do. Oh love is a magical thing and everytime this couple come in i just can't help but love them especially the husband i mean what commitment that right there is what i call a man. Oh

Was it you who spoke the words????

Could i resist his charm? Could i resist his voice?

Was it you who spoke the words
That things would happen but not to me
All things are gonna happen naturally
Oh, taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing


Oh, but at often times, those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns tonight
Oh, until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
others only read of the love
Oh, the love that I love
Love-ah-love-ah


See, I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words than I had ever heard
And I feel so alive


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
oOh love, love, you and I, you and I
Not so little, you and I anymore
Mmm hmm
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving
Is the glory of a boy


cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now
well then im almost finally out of, finally ou-ou-out of
Finally de de de de de de de, well I'm almost finally, finally
Well, I am free, oh I'm free


And it's okay
If you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephones
Well, they're working in both ways
But if I never, ever hear it ring
If nothing else
I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else
And that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well, then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally de de de de de de de de
Well I'm almost finally
Finally out of words

---------------------------Meow Meow-------------------------------

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Meow Meow Meow

Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Valentines Meow Meow Meowwwwwwwww

Lest we forget!!!!

Meow Meow Meow Meow......Meow Meow Miiieo.

Favourite favourite: O Lover

What's the worse thing that could happen?
we Could chane our minds.
That seemst o be the hottest topic at this time
We sit around in meditation, dragon chasing
Wondering ho's holding who's got the will to draw the line
I know you've got something burning up inside
It's so unhealthy but so good for me
If I didn't know- if I didn't KNow- If I didn't know what you loved me,
would you tempt me?


God only knows our contradictions to quitting
It's a hate to love relationship thing
a fire under you is so fulfilling
I feel there's nothing more I'm giving
Giving you the choke hold
My flirting with disaster is modern love
you are so bold
my wanting to kiss you still is not enough
I'm getting over all the comments
unfriendly statements made my people of nonsense


I'm getting stronger by the minute
and once I slip into position I'll swing you
and turn you all around


You are the sweetest thing i've found since whenever
You're the only way my time is measured
You might be the silent type
but you're advertising louder now
It's crazy how you're killing me.


But I like your red top and matching bottoms
you know the ones you've got on
Pull 'em over your skinny self but don't cover your tattoo
Cause I like to look at you and I love that smell on you
and I love that special place against your face for lasting too
And I like it natural, No need for chemicals
Sparking it up, my senses and making the sense to call it sex
and you're gonna get yours my lady
might even be today
but it aint no thing cause I'll be rolling right along with you


You are the sweetest thing i've found since whenever
you're the only way my time is measured
you might be the silent type but you're advertising louder now
it's crazy how you're killing me


Give us both a break and give us back a taste when the way things were
before they made the laws
guve us both a chance, but it won't be the last romance
cause, when the weekend starts, the guilty partys on


weekend party's over don't stop let's get closer
friday got gold shoulder monday got a new composure
weekend party's over don't stop lets get lower
I won't blow your cover opportunistic lover
weekend party's over don't stop let's get closer
Friday was mediocre monday I'm self exposed uh?
weekend party's over don't stop lets suppose-a
I won't blow your vover opportunistic lover


----------so hot!!!!!--------------------------

Saturday, February 04, 2006

"Bay Night Out"

Last night i went to sleep at like 4am knowing that i had to get up early to get to samz house and coz i was going to Harbour Town with the family gals.
So i went to my cousins then met up with the aunt and socialed at Harbour. I bought a new dress and metallic golden bag, cute!!! I only stayed for a few hours then left to go to samz work. When i rocked up she was sweeping and emz was late. We then proceeded to go to Samz house when she finished work, it didn't really get "started" until later on in the night but i'll get to that soon.

We had a plan to meet up with Mel,Shantelle,Mandi,Sam,Emma and ofcourse i and go somewhere like Shannanigans but a couple of hours after getting to Samz house Shantelle and Mel decided that they weren't showing up so it was just the four of us. This couldn't've have any better coz the night was awesome!!!!!! We waited for Mandi to get tea at her momz ready then we got ready and that took like an hour but it was worth it we all looked HOT. (Well i know i talk for myself here mostly but y'know one can't help the attraction to themselves.) Before that though we went and got some alkiohol that surprisingly Samantha bought all by herself no Id needed...suckers! He was dumb though we kept asking for crap then changing our minds and he didn't really care. I got four Passionfruit UDL for nine bucks and was like suckers coz they spent heaps on therez heheeh.

After we got ready we went looking for Shantelle coz Mandi wanted to borrow something but she wasn't home so we left but we decided to go around and grab ppls mail coz they had "Maccas" vouchers and meh we felt like it damn it. It was the best start to a fabulous evening out with the chickies. It got our hearts pounding and pulses racing so we were ready for anything that came our way. When we got to Shannaniganz the bouncer totally knew we were well the girls were underage coz i aint but keep thinking i am so he didn't let Mandi in coz Sam and I knew he wouldn't allow us through so we diverted to other direction to make it seem like "what whos going in there whatya talking bout phillus?" hehe So since we didn't make it in there we decided next best thing New York Bar and Grill which actually went alot smoother til we started being freaken out. We walked in like it was the norm and there was no security so that made it hell easay and just sat around the gals went to the toilets then came out a little later this was 9.05pm we got a bit freaken coz we thought we were gonna get kicked out so we went back in there then decided to leave the toilets and the Bar all together coz we heard ppl talking bout asking us for Id. We then went to the bowling alley and it was crap so we decided to leave Marion and go to where it all happened...The Bay.

When we arrived we went to pee coz damn those drinks were going through me like i don't know what so we went to pee talked to some girls bout their nights plan and outfits then stopped and went off to maccas. We used the vouchers we found* and the guy came up to me and goes "Large Fries and a Cheeseburger?" and by this time i was hungry and didn't wna spend me moolah so i said yes and left the premises. heheh suckers. But then i was the sucker coz it gave me the worst tummy ache in my whole entire life since the schoolie drink i had of samz it was like "Ohh Ohh Ohh". Oh and while i was just sitting outside Cibo these chick walks past me and grabs onto my shoulder and is all like "Jesus Loves YOU!" and how sweet but freaky she said it to everyone so i was thinking maybe she was drunk? As for me not really drunk drunk but tipsy i had had 3 of my drinks but eating was starting to sober me up. While we were sitting at Ciboz we were contemplating whether or not we should go and try to get into the Hotel that was "going off" at the time so we decided why not it's adventure and heck theres no security so Emz and I just wondered in the others came along. It was cool coz we were actually in but it was a bit bland coz no one was dancing and it was only crowded coz there was no space. We sat down and after a few minutes i decided to see if i could get alkiohol from the bar and i DID without being asked for Id. YAY!!! I bought a daquiri? Fruit shot it was blackberry and i didn't like it so gave it to the girls i was just happy i could purchase such an item without being asked for Id.

Well the music was crap until we requested better dance music coz thats all they had no Pop. Loousy bastards! Oh before this we were wondering around and coz when i'm drunk i'll be really careless and just do, see, say and go whereever. So when i saw a flight of stairs that said "House Guest Only" i decided ummm not anymore and went upstairs and the girls followed. The reason i went up there was to see if i could catch someone doing the dirty coz it seemed funny and lame so i was like meh why not but instead the most brilliant thing happened! We opened the door to the "private" section of the hotel like the actual room that they believe is probably their best room and we went in and stayed in there for around a few good minutes, enough for a nap. 11.35pm Emz wasn't happy with the situation coz she was "bored" while the girls and i were acutally really pleased to rest for a little bit especially in a hotel coz what if we couldn't get back in there.? It was actually a pretty sweet deal it had four beds and there were four of us! The balcony view was one that was of middle standard i could kinda see the beach. So after the Fast and the Furious we left for downstairs and partied. 12.40am after the dancing it really got to be a bore so we decided to go back upstairs, we had grabbed the key just incase. The bartender of twelve asked for our Ids and said that if we weren't 18 we shouldn't be there and thats whe the girls bolted which was kind of a dead giveaway but he didn't care by this time he was trying to chat up a blonde bimbo that was near him. Pffft.

When we got upstairs we just fell asleep but not before the girls did a little harrasing through the balcony then they stopped when security nearly saw them. We went to sleep and awoke and 4.30am and departed. We went downstairs and thought we had been locked in so we kinda freaked out but it was alll good coz there was an after hours automatic button that opened the door for the one night stands i reckon so that was lucky. We got into Mandis car and thats how we ended back to square one and Sammiz. So all in all it was a terrific night and i will totally remember this night for a long time just like the "Big Night Out" at the city. (8pm til 7am, awesome again.) These nights are sooo much fun and i'm soo glad that we were brave enough to be shot down coz we got to where we did and ended up having a grand time!!!!!

Mwah smoochers and emz i'll give ya a kiss. (She's a bit sore coz she didn't get a kiss!! (from fly boy heheh) .)

Friday, February 03, 2006

Lights Go Out

I ain't ever had nobody show me all the things
That you done showed me
In a special way I feel when you hold me
We gon' always be together baby
That is what you told and
I believe it cause I ain't never had
Nobody do me like you


[Bow Wow]
Now I done been with different kind of girls
So like I done seen them all
But ain't none of them at all (like you)
And I done seen the best of the best
Baby, still I ain't impressed cause
Ain't none of them at all (like you)
If you know how I feel when I chill
Look, if I'm seen with a girl
Then she gotta be just (like you)
And baby thats the way I feel
And I ain't got no choice
But for me to keep it real
Cause when we first got together
Starting hanging out you was skeptical at first
Had to figure out if
I was the kind of guy that
Would try to dog you out but
I ain't that kind of guy you try to make me out
You found out when you turned to my baby
I showed them other brothers
How to treat a lady
I let you drive when I ride that Mercedes
And I ain't trippin' or actin' shady
Cause baby you know

[Chorus]

[Ciara]
And everytime I think about you I smile
When you ride, when you call, when you come around
Your love is amazing to me
I can't wait till I see you (I wanna be with you again)
And everytime your out on the road (I'll make a trip)
And whenever I'm doing a show (Don't you forget)
That I'm your main chick
Who got that game chick
One in the same chick
The one you can hang with

[Chorus]

[Bow Wow]
Ok we hit the mall, pop tags
Spend a few G's (Cheesin')
Hit the runway to a new season
It ain't nothing
Spoil the one I care for
Feel like I ain't doin' enough
That's when I shape off
I give you this, give you that
What chu need love
You know I got it
Holla at me if you need love
In affection cause I'll be your protection
Kind of hard job but I'll do till perfection
And you can tell that I ain't tryin' to let you go
I get with you when I can
So thats how I let you know
And you be trippin' cause sometimes I gotta go
But chu the first one
I hollared to right after my show
Hey now I was trippin' in a sense
I was tense but my body's lose around you
But I'ma do without you
I gotta get it together, say whateva
Since I met you my life seems so better

[Chorus] - 2X


ADDICTED

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Devod Merc

I just found out i missed a screening of THE Best freaken film in the whole entire universe....Moulin Rouge!!!! That's right ppl it was shown at Mercury cinema Tuesday gone and i freaken didn't go so now i am very depressed and feel very angro about it! If only....well next time hopefully there is a next time! Mwah Loverz of the universe earth heheheh

Yellow Fellow

Bored Bored Bored......................Bored!!! I have no idea what is happening this wkn but i sure know one thing tomorrow i aint workin plus i'm going to Harbour Town first thing in the morning bcuz i'v been craving to go ever since i moved into my house. So hopefully i find nice pretty things to buy otherwise i'll die. Bored Bored

Heheh i missed the first ep of Lost lastnight coz while i was in the middle of watching Las Vegas my aunty pulled up at the front, my mum came bursting through the door and they kidnapped me and took me to Kmart and Coles heheh it was good i was all jittery, Nice Surprise #4. Anthony was with them and have i mentioned how age has made him even more adorable!? I got in the car and my first reaction everytime i see him is
Grab him and give him a huge hug
Then Give him a HUGE smooch on his cheek
See his smile, then raffle his short hair.
And after i had done all this things i get this "don't ara, don't mess my hairrrrrr" and i asked him why and he replied "becoz mum just brushed my hair after my shower and your going to mess it up and i don't have my brush!" I laughed how adorable!!! My aunty said that we were no longer allowed to touch his hair and he said "not after mumz brushed it becoz it gets messy and i don't want it messy." hehehe ofcourse i kept forgetting and continually raffled his hair and he would just say "why do you touch my hair ara?" "Y'know it's just been brushed but you keep doing it!" heheh i want a child.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Bare

You know that little bit of yourself that you have accidently and tiredly shown to others when you really wish you hadn't? Well that could be said for my last post but i'm glad i said what was on my mind this morning. I mean somethings have to come out even if it is on a blog. I mean things have to be let out otherwise i'll be or you'll be consumed with not rage but bitterness towards your ownself for not letting these things out! I don't mind if you know how i was feeling it's a bit shocking to read things that i later on have blocked from my mind but it's good to acknowledge the fact i was at least girl enough to rite it down!!!

Work today was usual bitchiness, complaintive, annoying and overall tiring. It's funny we're not at all allowed to talk about "Personal" things at work infront of customers becoz we've lost too many stupid ppl thinking we're being rude when we talk amongst ourselves. Meh i don't mind coz for one thing if anything it's Chris that's always bitching and moaning about others, gosh that woman won't let sleeping dogs lie? is that the saying? Nehow we have all been told not to talk about anything that doesn't involve the service and if it is negative which is understandable becoz if you rock up to a cafe and the ambience is shit then you wont go back. For some weird reason i am sooo drained it's like oh so tiring to rite on here. My back aches who the hell knows why and i think i have bruised the side of my ribs even though i don't know how the heck i did it. I put pressure with my fingertips and it's like pushing on an open wound; stings.

Okay now i'm just waiting for fotos to be downloaded so i can see them, darn this time, darn it!!!

Harder to learn

Be Strong...Be Powerful...Be Graceful...Be Sexy...Be an Angel and SMILE ALOT!!!

I have found the cutttest blog!!! Oh my gosh it has now become an addiction i am reading blogs that were written yonks ago only becuz the person that rites them kinda sounds like me at times and says things that i can only imagine writing but never do!!!
So everything looks like its going fine at the moment but i'm kinda waiting for that moment to pass i know i won't last long oh and by the way did i tell you guys i'm moving again in 6 months if things don't brighten up. IT definately gonna suck but i'll be no i won't be happier i wrecked things and now i feel guilty but hopefully they don't stay the same so we can emotionlly move on and not literally! My montra stays yet it fills an empty hole with hope its better than feeding a reality of loneliness into denial. Mwah children listen to your parents don't eat too many sweets and love life and yourself otherwise you'll always be searching for that someone to do it for you and believe be you dont want that. Find yourself first, find out who you truly are, want to be and why then you can spread your wings and hover through the millions of faces trying to figure out if your finally where you belong. Goodbye my little ones, don't let others destroy your dreams or get to you. The outcomes of your coolness is far better than when you lose it. I am now at this point and i'm SORRY i know i'm blamed but guess what i don't care the only thing i care about is living my life at the moment selfish but it's my plan and i intend to see it through until the day comes when i realise that my life is no longer just about me but about those that i love. Hard lesson to learn i think i know it but i'm fooling myself if i did know it i wouldn't be this way, i wouldn't hurt them like i do, i wouldn't ignore them and i definately would not leave them in the lerch wondering what my next move is. It's hard but hopefully once i understand what it is that i am trying soo hard to find then maybe that's when i will finally be free to love and let others in. I can't believe i'm like this you think you know my life yet you cannot imagine the pain i inflict, you can't imagine the hours of guilt i throw in so that i can bring myself to say sorry. Don't think this is some lame ass post about attention becuz it's a lame ass post about the way i know i feel and thought these feelings had disappeared until that stupid day. Now i am where i started but i will somehow get over it again i will try harder, i'll listen heck i won't say a word until i know it is my turn to speak! Life is brilliant at times when nothing else is on your shoulders, when the only person you know you have to be nice to is yourself but that isn't always enough, you need others becuz you can't always handle it on your own and i'm beginning to understand those words that have been lectured to me day and night for the past years of my adolesence and i guess it is better late than never yet it isn't late not for another few more long and painful days of getting to know who i really am.
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